Confused...

I think I was buying time.

I do not know much much longer I have left.

Maybe I do know, I just do not want that day to come.

How imprudent of me,
when I was the one dishing out advices like not falling so hard... :/

XD

Current Status

it pays to be straightforward. and i realised i like talking. :)

current status:
the feeling is there and i think it is mutual. but both of us do not know where we're heading to.

he lives in the present, with no thoughts about the future. he just want to enjoy the present. he just wants some company.
as for me, i do not see any future. and me being rational, i do not see any point of going forward if there's no possible future to look at.
but i'm being irrational because i enjoy his presence. and i do not want to do anything to break off the feeling even though i know fully well that we're heading nowhere...

Advice to myself

be level-headed, don't rush!

think through before going to the next step!

don't make the situation anymore difficult and sticky.
(so much for not wanting to care about anything and just to follow my heart)

我的愿望

2007年12月8日的雯怡在此写下她当时的愿望：

“如果以后有可能的话，我想：

1. 学服装设计

2. 学跳国标舞
3. 学跳拉丁舞
4. 学缝制衣服
5. 学企业管理
6. 学烹饪
7. 学剑道
8. 学箭术
9. 学枪法
10. 学骑马
11. 学架飞机”

哈哈，读到7开始还真觉得自己有点年少狂妄。可仔细想想，2，3，5，6都已在进行中。

或许这也是为什么我会参加SNB吧。瞑瞑之中我在完成我的愿望。:)