so sianz... supposed to go 3rd lang but i dun wan... anyway teacher is teaching lessons for those taking JLPT... n i'm nt taking... so i told my mum i going 3rd lang but actually is go n play with my junior... haiz... my jap eng-yr is 48... two more marks den pass le... but neva mind... i'm quitting anyway... my overall oso pass le
nowadays often go ale's blog... i totally like hers... but dunno why... everytime i go her blog... my heart hurt... her blog seems to be filled with sadness... she seems so lonely, i wish i could console her... but we seldom meet since we are in e diff class... sumtimes i wonder if we are true frenz...she said she hate false frenz... i wonder if i am one... sumtimes i feel like as if 不管我做什么,总会对不起某人...
it's raining outside now... n freezing cold in e com lab...i'm waiting for my junior to finish her meeting on pre-departure debrief... she's going perth this hol...muz ask her to buy sumthg for me... :p

exam results r out,it was ok...my L1R5 was 11... i wanted 9... but overall qiute happy lah, coz i gt 4 A1's... :D...my bio was e lowest among all 8 subjects(excluding 3rd lang-jap)... 60/100 .... haiz... but e whole cohort gt 37 % fail so i think i should be satisfied.... den my ss/geo gt 61... wasn't any better... at first teacher count mark wrongly.... so my mark was 71... i was like WOW!... my humanities neva gt better than 65 and now i gt 71!... dat's an A2!... but after i add up e marks... i found out dat it should be 61... i went to tell teacher... i felt terrible... it sux to be honest... haiz... but at least my conscious is clear...
today gt our yearbook... chuiwen appeared in it 8-9 times... dat's wat others told me... i dun bother to count... but e one of her on e cover page with her butt jutting out was .... i dunno wat word to use...
it's still skul time now... but after exam leh mah... sumore is free period... hehehe

呵呵... 考试终于考完了... 终于可以轻松下来，玩几天了... :D ... 拜三，准备和 ale 还有 phoeb 一起出去玩一下... 算是为她们庆祝明天的生日... 还有庆祝考试终于结束了... 每当想到要和她们出去，心里还是会很开心... 我想，我还是很在乎她们这两位朋友...
说到朋友，我记得xingyi曾经在回家的路上和我聊过着个话题... 聊着聊着她突然说了一句话... 其实hai yun算是你在cedar的best fren吧... 我愣了一下... 才突然发现，我好象从来都没想过，谁才是我真正的朋友... 后来回家想了想... 对我来说，没有所谓的best fren, 只有good fren... 因为我觉得，若用best fren来形容别人... 反而怪怪的... 再说，我把别人当成是good fren，人家也未必把我当good fren... 说不定只是普通朋友罢了... 那有多尴尬啊！
haiz... 今天早上yy迟到了... 她发烧，本来不想来的... 可是想说都已经是最后一天了，还是考完了比较安心... 听amanda说hai yun得了dengue... haiz... 她们还真够倒霉的...
不过话说回来... 我对这次的考试没有十足的把握，会拿到好成绩... 其实这并没什么... 只是觉得蛮对不起我妈... 因为在她看来，我好象变乖了，懂得要读书了... 但那些都是假象，是我装出来给她看的... 每当她不在家时，我总会偷偷地看电视、玩电脑... 起初，我也不以为然... 可后来当我告诉cher时，她只说了句:好 fake喔！... 我这才猛然发现... 我竟然是这么虚假的人... 可是我看我患上了电视瘾了吧... 不管我怎么想，到最后我还是会打开电视机... 尽管如此，我还得在其他人面前（包括我妈）装得好象一切都很好... 为什么？不就是为了面子吗？... 为了让别人以为，我是个神童... 是个不用怎么学习也可以考得很好的神童...
可是我觉得好累、也好失败噢！人类，为什么如此的虚伪、如此的死要面子？虽然说，没有人是十全十美的...

btw...
wishing yy happy 16th b'dae, u can now officially watch NC16 movies!(07/10)
and...
wishing ale n phoeb happy 15th b'dae, may we be frenz foreva!(11/10)

... ... last wk wed gt hcl end-yr... haiz... terrible.... den fri gt jap end-yr... wasn't ani better... i diden even study for it anyway...haiz... yy bdae cuming...still haven bought present for her... den alethea n phoeb's bdae oso cuming... on e same dae sumore... haiz... i broke oredi but still need to buy so many bdae present... haiz....