promos over!!!...bansai!!\(^_^)/....next wk only need go skul on fri...hehe...yesterday after e last paper went out with jess, si xuan, pee hua, ming shuan, rachel, xiao jia, veron, ulrica, huan jek, jun sen n wen bin...went to orchard...took neoprint...hehe... ... ...

gp paper yesterday was alright i guess...paper 1 was ok...did e qn on women's choice affecting the family...then paper 2 was a bit hard...didn't finish the aq..but overall think i can pass...meaning can get 45...Xp...mon self study...then econs on tue, maths on wed, chem on thur n phy on fri...followed by 1 whole wk of no skul...whoohoo.... :))

promos start le...wed gt chem spa skill a...quite manageable i guess...it's the same as one of thoses that we did before...today was physics spa skill a...um...dunno if it's easy or hard...then tml there'll be gp...jitters...self study on next mon..then it'll be econs, maths, chem n lastly phy...haiz... ...

月亮的秘密

在那蓝蓝的天空上，挂着银色的月亮，
张开温柔眼睛，找寻你的方向。

你是什么模样？是否跟我一样？
月亮弯弯月亮圆，岁月偷偷在变换。

阴晴远缺永远，到底幻梦一场，
有人忘记有人哭，有人伤心有人笑！

我把一切埋葬，天一样的翱翔，
飞呀飞呀我的梦，朝着月亮的方向。

did a personality disorder test...hehe...interesting result...

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid
78% 49%
Schizoid
70% 53%
Schizotypal
70% 53%
Antisocial
58% 47%
Borderline
46% 47%
Histrionic
34% 43%
Narcissistic
38% 41%
Avoidant
54% 39%
Dependent
58% 37%
Obsessive-Compulsive
50% 40%

*scores in gray are the average web score

can take the test at dis website: http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html

hehe...in skul now...these few days damn shiok...yesterday gp lesson was cancelled...econs was pushed forward so lesson ended at 11...hehe...then studied with yr, jess, sx, mx n ph til ard 2 then went back home...today phy lecture n prac was cancelled...maths n chem lecture pushed forward...so lesson ended at 12...hehe...then now in skul...supposedly studying..hehe...

skul start le...yesterday chem lecture in lt 2...aircon spoil again!!!....damn stuffy n hot...then today was raining in the morning...gt drenched...very cold sia....昨天是七月鬼节最后一天...空气里弥漫了烟的味道...竟然有人（ming shuan) 会喜欢这种味道...早上去学校的时候看到五个烟堆堆...紧张又刺激的一天...Xp....嗯，挺开心的...嘿嘿...

私の夢はどこですか... ...

今天又是个既快乐又伤心的日子...
快乐是因为我终于体会到了自己的存在感；
伤心是因为今天是我有生以来最倒霉的一天...唉！

别人问我为何喜欢留长指甲...我说因为长长的指甲让我的手指显得修长...
别人问我为何总把时间调快...我说因为调快的时间让我能够多做一些事...
其实真正的原因只有我自己最清楚...

不知为何...进入九月后心情就超低落... ...

promos in two wks time...jitters...n i jz realise that there's chem spa skill b nx thur...hurhur...there'll be judo grading tml...haiz...sian...nowadays whole day mugging for promo...so many papers to do... ...
trying hard not to think abt it... ...平常心...

我索求我得不到的，我得到我不索求的。

好累好烦哦...haiz...cher,有很多事要告诉你但不知怎样讲...等我理清了思绪再说吧...Xp...那天说的事我打算晚些再说...promos 要来了...从没像这次这么没自信过...T_T...好好加油吧！

一个幻影一场梦，
一个随时会消失的泡沫，
你能给我我要的安全感吗？

will someone pray for me?...
pray for my soul... ...

昨晚又做梦了...很美的一个梦...一个我很希望能成真的梦...不过人家都说梦是反的... ...
昨天在咖啡座里, cher 说我在烦事情...marion 问我在烦什么...我没答，因为我自己也不知道我到底在烦些什么...她又问说是不是学校里的事...我说了一句我从没想过却很真实的话...我说我从不烦学校里的事...她又问是家里的事吗...我沉默了许久才说，或许是吧...我以为我不在乎，直到人家问了才发现不是...

by the way...was having a little arguement with my mum jus now over some chem qn when a cockraoch climbed into my room...argh!!...then it decided to fly ard n landed on my mirror...then i think it was facinated by its mirror image coz it stay rooted there n keep waving its long antennas..gross...n i gt totally distracted by its presence that i lost my argument with mum...haiz..well it was really my points weren't strong... Xp

今天发生了许多事...心情起伏很大...是个快乐却又伤心的一天...很矛盾吧...
tcher's day eve...celebrations...haha...the concert in vj was nice...damn hilarious...hehe...gt videos showing some of thte tchers...hehe...but e atmosphere a bit nt high...then after that gt celebrate september babies + xiaojia's bday...then went cedar...met yy at bus stop outside my skul n went back together....hehe...watch the concert at cedar...the items quite simple but i was a bit touched...hehe..whole hall of ppl screaming...miss that feeling...but this yr every class wearing their class-t so very colourful in the hall...but i would prefer it if all had worn our blue uniform...after concert saw cher!!!!..hehe...talk to her for very long...talking to her is so therapatic...hehe..thanks cher...then i gt damn hungry and waited for marion n some other 4s ppl to arrive while groaning for food at the same time...in the end me n wan lin went with ard 8 or 9 4s ppl for lunch.. a bit strange though...saw xinyi..hehe...she became crazier n everybody wonders wat sajc has done to her...anyway went to a place in potong pasir...quite a nice place...一个挺有情调的小咖啡座...there was crayons on the table which was covered with white paper so u can actually draw on it while eating...anyway in the end i didn't feel like eating though i was still hungry and only ordered vanilla ice coffee..very sweet...xinyi they all were playing the games at the place..n me n cher a bit emoing...i was feeling tired n a bit sad...n well, we were writing n drawing stuff on the paper when cher showed me a sentence...n all of a sudden i felt like crying..well i did cry eventually (only a few drops of tears which i quickly rubbed away) but only cher saw...but marion was asking if i was crying...i said no...didn't want more ppl worrying over me...but i felt better afterwards...cher said i think too much n ask me not to think anymore...haiz..i'll try but i don't think i'll succeed...i'm still pondering over wat to do... ...

我以为我不会心痛，
我以为自己很潇洒，
我这才发现我是多么的不了解自己... ...