以前很羡慕常做梦的人...现在已不再向往梦境的来临...

好闷的假期啊...

仍然在做着莫名奇妙的梦... ...

我越来越怀疑我前辈子可能是某个隐居在深山老林的顽固老头...
拜六的harmoc concert不赖，有好几首我爱听的曲子... :D

i don't know what to say,
i don't know what to do,
i don't know........................

以为我不在乎，以为我会忘记，以为我能释怀，但是... ...

最近又在做些胡乱的梦了...
梦到在一个没有出口的商场里被人追赶, 然后总会跑进位于角落的麦当劳或寿司饭店, 其他商店则全没在营业...
还梦到在遥远的未来，人们开始兴起一股领养机器小孩的潮流, 结果我（其实在梦里感觉不是我而是似乎我的灵魂附在某个女人的身上）也领养了一个带回家，结果发现领养回来的机器小孩阴森森的有股邪气，而且会随时掏出一把抢乱射...
也梦到一整班人在一个破屋里打羽毛球，明明没有风，却有一股看不见的力在控制着羽毛球的方向...
我好像一直在做这种奇奇怪怪的梦...而每次做了梦后，第二天醒来总会觉得很疲惫...不知是否是巧合, 每次做梦前后都会有不愉快的事发生...

watching harmoc concert tml...this is after yanru asked and persuaded for dunno how many times before i finally relented and agreed to go...then for the past week she's being asking me everyday whether i'm excited abt it...then i realised i'm totally void of any emotions with regards to going to the concert...it's not that i'm dreading it but neither am i all enthu and fluffed up abt it...it's just... nothingness...and upon deeper thinking i realise i dun care abt many things much either...i just feel so emotionless.........

心情好疲惫、好烦，好想找个人倾吐一番，却发现自己也不清楚自己到底在烦些什么... ...
以为可以看得很透彻，却发现我还是会很在意某些人事物... ...
我不明白为何人可以这么自私（还亏我是那类信奉“人不为己，天诛地灭”的人）...虽说彼此不是怎样很熟的朋友，但好歹也该为别人着想一下吧...至少也不该随意践踏别人的感情... ...
以前会为别人的过失找借口， 会试着别那么在意...但最近好像越来越难保持那种平常心了...甚至会气自己为何会如此在意某些在我看来没必要在意的事（或者说，那些不关我的事）...所以只能封闭自己，回到自己的世界找回我原有的平静... ...
有时候很想一个人静一静，沉淀一下心中的烦躁不安...但周围却有那么多扰人的噪音轰炸着我的双耳...我明白不是所有的人都了解我，但我渐渐发现或许世界上本来就不会有很多了解你的人... ...
不过至少身边的人包容着我和我的古怪...



难道宁静那么难找吗？

haven blog for quite some time...a lot of things happened/happening/going to happen this week...
there was bball match against nyjc on mon...most of the class pon chem lecture to go support...so chem tutorial was cancelled and pushed to the next day...
pe on tue was slack...played vball...it was quite fun... :)
wed ponned chem lecture and went to watch bball match against rjc...it was quite an exciting match...and we beat rjc 35-42....i think...diden go for soccer
thur was super duper slack...phy lecture watched some video coz lecturer diden come den maths lecture...then that's it! end of the day! gp was cancelled but we weren't informed by however's supposed to tell us...so there were slight(or is it a lot?) unhappiness...then went toa payoh to watch vball finals against hci...genna trashed 3-0..hur...
this week seem to be a slack week...or at least it seem ed so to me...yet i feel more tired..there were many frayed nerves...........

hse meeting first thing in the morning...hse comm nominee speeches...some was very funny and hilarious..had a good laugh...went to watch basketball match with the class after school...get to miss 1 period of econs...heh...vj playing against aj...it was quite an exciting match but sadly we lost...45-49... :( ...but oh wellz, the bballers still did their best i guess...and they were rather down after the match...

我不知道原来可以这样的哦...

celebrated may babies' birthdays today...si xuan, kenneth, wen bin, xing zhong and willy...cake was bought by huan jek from secret recipe...coffee flavour!! :D...it was quite nice...then peehua threw a piece of cake onto kenneth's face and junsen huanjek and kenneth began smearing each other with cake...then ph threw cake at wen bin and genna thrown back by him...so half of her hair got cake...it was quite fun watching them "fooling" ard...heh...Xp

the days are getting hotter and hotter...and i was commenting to yanru abt what's the human boiling/melting point...hurhur...can you imagine if you are walking on the road then people ard you start to turn into jelly-like state or start evaporating...amazing...but yanru say that's unlikely...new lecturer for econs...he's funny and lame at times...but 90% of the time i dun get what he's saying...coz he doesn't go acc. to the lecture notes but just rambles off...blehx...organic nitrogen compounds finally over...but i dun understand the protein part...how??...haiz...chem review test on wed...

an eventful week:

tue(29/04) : late for school by 1min...damn mad with the a****** teacher...nag so much...but maybe it's a blessing in disguise(?) coz i feel all perked up and energized for 2.4 after that...managed to get D...missed C by 20sec...cnnt get gold...but at least i passed everything... :D
wed(30/04) : yr,ms and ph pon school...students council investiture in the morning...booooring...then chem tutorial, econs lecture(good thing the aircon in LT1 was fixed) and maths tutorial...sports day after that...went out to parkway with sx, jess and jx for lunched...the security card detained our ezlink/ic coz they afraid ppl will pon...watched sports day for a few min then played bridge...the security guards locked the gate after sports day started to prevent ppl from goingoff halfway...then when it was ard 6pm there were so many ppl standing behind the gate waiting for it to open...chionged out after the security guards finally open the gate...heh...xD...
thur(01/05): labour day! holiday! ~~
fri(02/05): gave sx her bdae present! :D...forgot to bring maths notes for lecture(as usual...>.<)...jess almost lost her wallet again...haiz...but it's a good thing it was found eventually...and to quote her words: "( i'm so happy!)^100" :)