Monday, November 14, 2011

Changes

re-reading all my blog posts since the inception of this blog. and i realised that i have changed alot, yet maybe not alot.

in terms of the use of language, i guess i can proudly say that i have improved vastly. reading my own posts written back in those sec school days even make myself cringe. i used way too much short forms (eg 'nw' for now, 'noe' for know, 'dis' for this etc) and '...' (when a simple full stop would suffice) which i guess was the 'in' thing back then. but now, i just felt that those were just an indication of poor english and immaturity.

and there was this period when i thought i had improved in terms of time management and handling school stuff. but looking at my past posts and my current state, i can't be so sure anymore :(

but oh well, i am definitely a more sociable person now, i think. and less grumpy. or maybe i just didn't have time to post all my troubles. and i'm sensible enough to know that not everything can be shared on my blog. heh. :P

and i found a pretty interesting post:

about 4 years ago in september 2007, i did a personality disorder test. i did the test again today, and realised a few interesting changes. any here's the result:

Paranoid
2007
78%
2011
58%
AVE
49%
Schizoid70%78%53%
Schizotypal70%74%53%
Antisocial58%46%47%
Borderline46%22%47%
Histrionic34%30%43%
Narcissistic38%30%41%
Avoidant54%54%39%
Dependent58%38%37%
Obsessive-Compulsive50%38%40%
Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.
Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.
Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

surprisingly, i became more: paranoid, antisocial (when i thought that i had become better...), borderline, dependent and obsessive-compulsive.

and i always thought that antisocial-ness and dependent have some kind of correlation i.e. the more anti-social one is, the less dependent he/she will be. however, the new result kinda debunked this. i got more anti-social, yet i became more dependent. huh?

conclusion: i am a very insecure person. D:

to take the test: