gosh, skul's starting in less than a wk's time...T_T...yesterday was ogl training camp as well..the turnout was equally pathetic as 21 and 22 dec...gt the dry run for the dry and wet games...quite fun but a bit tiring...cheer until like siao...Xp...my leg muscle aching now...>.<...too long never excercise in the holidays liao...haha...then today went skul for the walk-in skit...valour storyline damn lame lah...haha...then saw all the og heads practise thte ending skit...funny sia...lolx...haiz...gt econs re-paper...がんばってね！

The first day of Christmas my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.

The second day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The third day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The fourth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The fifth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The sixth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The seventh day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

The eighth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a parteridge in a pear tree.

The nineth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a parteridge in a pear tree.

The tenth day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a parteridge in a pear tree.

The eleventh day of Christmas my true love sent to me
Eleven pipers piping,
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a parteridge in a pear tree.

The twelfth day of Christmas my true love sent to me

Twelve drummers drumming,

Eleven pipers piping,

Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five gold rings,
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a parteridge in a pear tree.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :D

OMG!!!...i juz went online to check on my SAT results...coz there's three components to the whole test then they juz give the separate scores but didn't give the total score...so muz add them up ourself...then i press the calculator wrongly and my score became 15__ something...i was so shocked...like so lousy results la...then i press again and i realise i pressed wrongly...hahaha...so my result was ok i guess, satisfiable...haha...:))

21&22 dec(fri & sat): ogl training camp...quite fun...:))...learnt cheers and all the mass dance...got sea regatta dry run today...haha...then all the valour ppl end up swimming in the sea...:))...but not a lot of valour ppl came today...sad sia...at first there was abt 12 of us...less than half of the other ogs...Xp...then when the day ended only abt 6 ppl left...:(...but overall it was quite fun i guess...

christmas coming... (^_^)

人生啊，这是我做过的最漫长最无聊最让人想睡觉的梦了... ...

不知从何时起，
我开始在乎起周围的人事物，
我渐渐忘了过去的我行我素，
也开始害怕起一个人的孤独。

说个谎吧，自己听吧；
下场雨吧，淋湿我吧；
写首诗吧，自己看吧;
做个梦吧；唱首歌吧... ...

大考小考何时了，测评知多少？
小子昨日有丢分，成绩不堪回首月明中。
各科考试应犹在，只是朱笔改，
学生能有几多愁，恰似一江春水向东流。

还有三个礼拜就要开学了...一想到那个可恶的econs r-paper就会头痛...有很多东西已经忘光了，哦不，是根本就没学会...于是我开始采取了每天看两个小时的econs notes的变态措施来恶补一下...嘿嘿...尽管如此，假期生活毕竟是比较轻松的...睡眠比平时多了25%...胃口也变大了很多...结果当我站上体重器时，着实地被吓了一跳...我的体重已飙升到了一个史无前例的天文数字...嗯，好像有点夸张...反正就是一个很恐怖的数字就对了...T_T...天啊，我该怎么办啊!!!...

如果以后有可能的话，我想：
1. 学服装设计
2. 学跳国标舞
3. 学跳拉丁舞
4. 学缝制衣服
5. 学企业管理
6. 学烹饪
7. 学剑道
8. 学箭术
9. 学枪法
10. 学骑马
11. 学架飞机

想学的东西很多...时间和精力却不够...咳...
明明有很多话想说的...结果全都忘了...

读到以下这则趣味故事...:)

一天，一位医生将一群嗜酒如命的酒鬼召集到一起，在他们面前做了这样一个实验：
医生将两只杯子放到桌上，一杯装满了清水，另一杯装满了酒精。他把一条毛毛虫先丢进装满清水的杯子，大家看着虫子在清水里游着，满满地又爬了出来。然后，医生又将毛毛虫抓起来，投入装着酒精的杯子，虫子在酒精里挣扎了几下便一动也不动了。
看完这个实验，酒鬼们面面相觑，屋子里沉默了好长一段时间。正当医生准备对他们分析酒精对人体有害的道理时，从屋子的某一角落传来一个声音：“医生，我明白了，只要我们多喝酒，那我们的肚子里绝对不会生虫子！”

i realize i've dreaming quite often lately..which is rather un-me...coz i seldom dream and even if i do, i would forget everything the moment i wake up...the only times i dream and i remember is when i was troubled..so i guess i'm troubled...but troubled by what??...and my dreams are all so wierd, they make no sense..
there was one where i was sleeping so dead in class(my class now, this is so rare) then i was chased out by the teacher(dunno who the teacher is)...i continued sleeping outside the classroom and the next moment i was back in shanghai shopping like crazy together with a friend(but i dunno who she is)...haha
then there was another one where i was in university(whao, me actually in uni, sheez)...i was in a brightly lit classroom with ard 7 or 8 other students waiting for the teacher to come in...we got bored and we started making paper aeroplanes and throw them ard...hah...then the teacher suddenly appeared at the door...an old female very serious-looking math teacher... ...

Yesterday night as I lay awake on my bed, a faint tinkling of music drifted in from the window. It seemed to come from the hands of a child, experimenting with a new and strange instrument. For the tune was simple and, at times, broken but nevertheless, it was pure and beautiful to my ears. As I wandered into dreamland, the melody lingered in my head and I yearned for that faraway land from which it flowed from. But it is lost to me...

01/12(sat): SAT! ...the whole paper was freaking long...3hr 45min...siao...and it was freezing at the test centre...i think I was a bit screwed...hope I can score at least 1950...but I think it’s a bit hard...went to eat buffet for dinner...haha...shiok...Xp...
02/12(sun): went Sentosa with my parents...went to the Images of Singapore...Butterfly Park and Insect Kingdom...went to watch the Song of Sea and 4D magix...oh, and played the luge...something like a mini car where you drive down the slope...quite fun... hehe...saw lots of Japanese students at Sentosa...a few hundred I think...I think they are there for some school trip or something...overall the trip to Sentosa was fun I guess...but we picked the wrong day to go...the whole place is like flooded with people...shudders...and the trip once more confirmed my alienation towards kids...they are just total brats...blehx...went home very tired...today slept until 12...heh...

将来的将来：
1. 我想开一间专卖店。专卖什么呢？专卖衣服。什么衣服呢？我设计的衣服。什么设计呢？灵感取自蝶舞、花香与大自然的设计。
所以，将来的将来，我想开一间专卖我设计的衣服专卖店。:)
2. 我还是想开一间店。什么店呢？动漫店。就这吗？不，店内还有咖啡座。还有吗？还有，店内也会买当下流行的服饰品。
所以，将来的将来，我想开一间融合咖啡、动漫与流行服饰的连锁店。:)
3. 我想有一间房子。什么房子呢？很大很大的豪宅。然后呢？然后将豪宅布置成欧美式风格。
所以，将来的将来，我想拥有一间欧美风格的大豪宅。:)

gearing up for SAT on this sat...hope I won’t fare too badly...
it’s towards the end of November...there is only one mth to the start of a new school year...such a bleak thought....anyway, this means that I have only one mth left to study for that damned econs re-test paper...how fun...hurhurhur...and I have already wasted one mth’s time when I shld have put my heart and soul(blehx...) on my dearest econs notes...on second thought, maybe I shldn’t have appealed to continue taking 4H2...econs is such a bore and burden...and I can’t seem to focus on it...i tried my best to read the notes but my mind just goes blank and refuses to register anything whenever I set my eyes on the econs notes...it is so not my cup of tea...and I think I’ll flunk the re-test just like my mid-yr and the promos...doomed sia...haiz...i know I’m gonna flunk my re-test if I continue to carry this kind of attitude...and I well deserve it if that really happens though how I wish it wouldn’t...and so it is wise to buck up now and really study hard...but this is hard...i’m just not suited to take econs...wat am I gonna do if I am planning to do accountancy in uni?...gosh, i feel so melancholic....
heh..this whole post is so dedicated to dearest Economics...Xp
my heart tells me this...my head tells me that...whichever one should I listen to??

class bbq yesterday...yanru diden go!!!!!!!!!....haiz...the bbq overall was nt bad i guess....abt 18 ppl went...miss ng, mr ho n mrs ting went as well...mrs ting brought her daughter along...bbqed and played till ard 10.30 then went back home...sian...
juz now gt someone came to sell products at my door...the person said he was selling some products from some company that helps create jobs for the needy and ex-convict...well, i would normally turn this asking-for-money kind of ppl away...but he said that he was formerly an ex-convict and he had volunteered to help in this job reation programme...and so i bought a pen from him for $2...i rather admire his courage for admitting that he is an ex-convict and i guess that's what made me bought the pen...and i felt good after buying it... :)...and then mum came say this:if this is so easy, i can also go and cheat ppl out of their money...FCUK!!!...does she have to be so......like, it's my money that's conned(if that's what she think though likely not...)and i spent $2 to feel good also not bad mah....^%$@#&%

最近老呆在家里…闲闲没事做...嗯，也不完全没事做啦…学校里的假期作业一箩筐，我一看到就闷掉…反正闲来没事，我就想了很多事情…想着想着，就觉得自己好幸福哦…嘿…我发现原来身边有很多人关心我…也因为这些人的存在，让我不断地去思考生命的意义还有我自己内心的一些想法…说老实话，朋友是我生命中不可或缺的财产…到目前为止，我都有幸碰到几位能和我坦诚相对的人…因为她们，所以我开心，也已渐渐地忘了孤单的滋味了…有天听着朋友们对我的评价，我惊觉原来自己变了…曾经有人说过：变化是好事…我想我的变化是件好事吧，至少我是这么认为的...可我发现当我渐渐远离以前的我时，却又有一种失落感...于是乎我不自觉地想要挽留一部分过去的我...我想我的内心深处想要保留些什么吧...i guess that sort of explains why I walk like a ghost/zombie...whatever you call that...我会改的，只不过是时间的问题...等哪一天我终于能够释怀了，我会台头挺胸像个正常人那样走路...嘿嘿...Xp

eh... ...
14/11(wed): well, that was a rather scary day i would say...here's what happened: it was just after lunch...dad went to the bathroom n he said that there was a whole bunch of cockraoches in the bathroom...i freaked out...apparently, he gt rid of them by swatting them with slippers...there's 7 of them..all baby cockroaches...erm, the word 'baby' doesn't really suit these things coz it conjours the image of cute little cuddly infants but those things floating in the toilet bowl (that's where they went after being swatted by my dad's slippers)are nowhere near cute, but they are small...i digress...anyway, i was clearing the dishes and washing when i noticed a few more half dead cockraoches appearing out of nowhere...jitters...n i yelled for mum...heh...so in the end, a total of 17 cockroaches went down the toilet bowl...hehe...

15/11(thur): mum have always wanted to go see those museums in singapore...so it is on this day that both of us are free when we decided to go visiting...hehe...our first target was the asian civilisation museum...sounds boring but mum wanted to go and see...so yup, we went there...but in the end the museum relocated to elsewhere due to renovation work...hah...great...so we end up going to fort canning park which was just in the vicinity...and it was so hot...i was practically melting...hurhur... ...

there's gonna be a class bbq outing at ecp next thur...hurhur...didn't really felt like going at first...but then i realised that i didn't go out with whole class since dunno when so, yup i'll be going...hopefully it'll be fun...but then, i can always go home whenever i like...heh...

在一本书上看到这么一个小故事，觉得挺有趣的：

有一个小女孩，每天都从家里步行去上学。
一天早上，天气不太好，云层渐渐变厚。到了下午时分，风吹得更急，不久，天空开始闪电打雷，下起倾盆大雨。
小女孩的妈妈很担心，她担心女儿会被打雷闪电下着，甚至有可能被雷击中。雷声隆隆，雨下得越来越大，闪电像一把把锐利的短剑划破长空。女孩子的妈妈赶紧驾驶着私家车，沿着上学的路线去接心爱的女儿。
忽然，母亲看到自己的小女儿一个人走在大街上。她发现，当天空每次闪电的那一瞬间，女孩都会停下脚步，抬头往天上看，嘴角并且露出微笑。
观察了许久，妈妈终于忍不住叫住她的孩子，问她说：“ 你在做什么啊？”
小女孩天真地说：“上帝刚才帮我照相，所以我要笑啊！”

心的体验：
我们都怕打雷和闪电。因为自小就听大人说“人在做，天在看”，稍有“行差踏错”，老天爷无情的闪电和雷击都有可能针对着你。
我们从小就不敢浪费一点一滴的粮食和财物。听大人说，把白米糟蹋的人，会受到雷公爷爷的谴责。
所以，每一次的雷暴天气，我们都是乖乖地安坐家中，不敢有半点的淘气和顽皮。
如今，见到那位天真的小女孩，竟把闪电视为“上帝在照相”，不禁为她的想象力感到由衷的喜悦。
既然“上帝在照相”，那就希望人类多一些和平，多一些微笑，把最美好的一面展献出来吧。:)

argh...after all those work and with pw finally finished my throat decided to play a trick on me...so pain...T_T...got sore throat n according to my mum: i sounded like a duck...hmph!...quackquack....quackquackquack...Xp...haiz...and now have to concentrate on my econs and try to pass the &%$#&$ econs re-paper at the start of next year...haiz... ....

hmm...
05/11(mon): last op rehearsal...mrs ting came in halfway n all those who haven presented(including my grp) panicked...hehe...but in the end it was rather relaxed n hilarious...then went out for lunch with the usual ppl...ate pasta mania at suntec...then pee hua left after lunch n the rest of us wandered ard...then saw a doll at a toy shop...very cute...the eyes can open n close de...hehe...so they bought it for me as bdae present...thanks!!..:))
06/11(tue): op!...hehe....it was a bit screwed at the start...n i fumbled a bit....but i relaxed after ard midway n e rest is history...then went out with the usauls again minus pee hua(she gt guitar lesson) to bugis...ate lunch...then took neoprint...n ended up with less than $1 in my wallet...hehe...
07/11: last day of PW!!!!

忽然觉得很空虚...有很多话要说却不知如何开口...有种很寂寞的感觉...呵呵...照道理不应该有这种感觉的...毕竟一个人都这么多年了...应该寂寞惯了吧...天啊，觉得自己好像又跌入了一个心情的谷底...信任这东西还真是爱和我玩躲猫猫...咳...

yesterday was fun...pw meeting at 10am...in the end we wasted 1 hr slacking n joking ard...and another 1 hr doing serious work...which is just editing of the ppt slides, coordination of e grp presentation and ans some questions that might be asked during q n a during the op...then after went parkway to eat lunch...supposed to whole grp go one...then jansen say he no money...ulrica wan to eat in skul but skul not much food so she went home instead...then in the end me, yanru, wenbin, junsen, kenneth plus 1 went to eat at pasta mania...after that went home...trying to do I&R now...haiz...sian... ...

@^%$%&^#^#&^%...生气了...

年少狂妄... ...

today's halloween... ...

A dead sleep came over me
And from my horse I fell
O I forbid you, maidens all,
That wear gold in your hair
To come or go by Carterhaugh
For young Tam Lin is there

The steed that my true-love rides on
Is fleeter than the wind;
With silver he is shod before,
With burning gold behind.
And fill your hands o' the holy water
And cast your compass round

She had not picked a rose, a rose,
A rose but barely one
When up and started young Tam Lin
The truth I'll tell thee, Janet;
In no word will I lie

But aye she grips and holds him fast
And pleasure is the fairy land
For those that in it dwell,
But at the end of the seven years
They pay a tax to hell.
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
Into a serpent or a snake;
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
Into a deer so wild,
But hold me fast, don't let me go,
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
A hot iron at the fire,
But hold me fast, don't let me go,
To be your heart's desire.

Out then spoke her brother dear-
He meant to do her harm-
"There grows a herb in Carterhaugh..."
Had i the wit yestereen, yestereen,
That i had got today
I'd pay my tax seven times to hell
Ere you were won away!

O first let pass the black, lady,
Then let pass the brown,
But quickly run to the milk white steed-
Pull you his rider down
But the night is hallowe'en, Janet,
The morn is Hallowday.

About the dead hour of the night
She heard the bridles ring,
But Janet was as glad of that
As of any earthly being
The night it is good Hallowe'en,
The fairy folks do ride,
And they that would their true-love win
At Miles Cross they must bide.
They shaped him in her arms at last
A mother-naked man.

忘了说昨天在我家附近看到一只猫和她的小猫们...总共有六只...超小的，是刚生出来没多久的...很可爱，而且很小，比半个手掌还小...很像小老鼠...有只小猫的脐带还在呢...累了...困了...倦了...

halloween's coming... ...

wed gt op workshop...damn long n tiring...gt 7 which i think is not bad for me...:))...ate hairy crab last night again...oishi...XD...jess smsed me yesterday to tell me that i gt in for ogl...n there's e briefing today...i realized that this is not really my cup of tea...but i'll reap what i sow n hopefully what i reap is pleasant and not disappointing...these days getting so sian doing pw... ...

finish doing pw...yanru just left...tml gt mock op...jitters...sianz...life's starting to feel a bit boring...no fun de... ...

sianz...in skul library nw...did op rehearsal just nw...not bad lah...just that my part was super super short only half the time that they give each student....then nw nothing to do liao...actually need to add on to my op script...but lazy..later go home then do...Xp...sianz... ...

hmmm...tue 7.30am went skul...in the end wasted ard 3hr before any serious was being done...pia wr until like ard 5 then the next day(wed) the printing part was damn confusing...X(...then rested for whole yesterday n stayed away from pw...today went skul at 9.30 listen to principal talk...after that went back ct to take result slip yada yada...then miss ng was like telling us she wun be taking us nx yr n made it sound so...sad... ...n she like made a calender for each of us with all the birthdays n exam dates...yup n then discussed pw for like ard half an hr then me yanru jess si xuan ming shuan n pee hua went to suntec for luch...we ate at pizza hut but nobody ate pizza...-_-"...then when we were going home yanru finally got high n me her n peeh hua kept laughing from suntec to the mrt station...si xuan ming shuan n jess went another way n took bus... ...and nw, back to pw oral presentation...haiz...sianz...
oh, yesterday when cutting watermelon mum's finger kena chopped...as in really a part of the flesh together with the nail came off...i noe this is gross...hope the wound would heal soon but i think it'll take some time before the finger goes back to normal... ... ...

haiz...pai-ing pw in skul again!!!...sun did pw from 11.30 all the way to ard 5...(@_@)...tried so hard to cut down on words to meet the word limit for wr...went thaipan for lunch...then today meet in skul again...haiz...sianz... ...
tonight eating hairy crab agiain...(^_^)

yesterday was a fun day!!... :))...anyway, did pw till ard 11.30am then went to eat lunch at long john's with yanru, jess, si xuan, pee hua n wen bin...ming shuan went to jing shuan's hse for pw...then walked walked at parkway with jess, yanru n si xuan...then we went to esprit to try this piece of clothe...hehe...went back to si xuan's hse to take my handphone as it went dead before we left school for lunch n it happened that she have the charger at home...then we stayed at her hse for abt 45min n fooled ard...eh...actually is si xuan helping me ans my sms and well, yup, it was fun...btw...i knocked my head on her bedside table...Xp...hehe... ...

in skul nw...juz finish doing pw...for e next two wks my whole life will be revolving ard pw...boohoo...anyway...there's full day today...woohoo...but like a bit no mood to play coz gt pw to do...others also doing pw...very sian...there's a long long wait later...T_T...sian

doing pw nw...wanna die ahhh...gt back econs paper today..well, i flunked it...worse than mid-yr...but well, i guessed i deserved this kind of result...anyway, still need to thank yanru, jess, si xuan, ming shuan n pee hua for comforting me... ((:...expected such kind of result but never expected myself ...well...u noe...didn't realised that i do actually care abt e results for econs...hand in ogl application form today...anyhow ans e qns..hehe...will have interview nx wed...dunno can pass thru nt...wonder if i'll feel sad if i can't get in...shall wait n see...ahhhhh!!!...shitty pw!!!!!...shall continue my pw..T_T

o, happy birthday to ale n phoeb!!!...muacks... ;)

gt back promo results for maths chem phy n gp le...i passed gp..woohoo...n results for the rest of the subjects are satisfactory though my chem dropped a bit compared to mid-yrs...will be getting back econs tml...jitters...yanru say her fren say the lecturer say that whole level nobody get a for econs...haiz...wonder if i'll be able to pass...T_T...wanna be ogl nx yr...(^_^)...but dunno if mum will let me since there'll be quite a lot of meet-ups during the hols...i wanna change blogskin... ....

ate hairy for dinner last night...ahhh...oishi...bt i realised i 'm a bit allergic to crabs...everytime i eat crab my nose will itch like hell...bt who cares...the crabs' nice anyway n i'll continue eating crabs...muahaha...but i also realise that hairy crabd's a bit heaty...woke up today with 3 extra pimples...boohoo....today is farewell assembly for e seniors...the show very funny...then after that everyone gt free icecream from principal...after which gt this play about protecting singapore those ne kid of thing...then went marine parade to get a present...tml skul gt open hse...looking forward to tml...(^_^)

lemme see wat happened...hmmm...
mon:went out with jess, si xuan, ming shuan n pee hua...went to marine parade...saw ale while waiting for e rest to come...went to makan at parkway after that walk walk...then we saw a very nice scene....hohohoho....then went kbox...muahahaha...pee hua very high...in the end we all jumped on e sofa...sang, or rather shouted, at e top of our voices...Xp...acc. to cher,this is so not me...hehehe....we sang many songs...towards the end we started choosing some eng songs...then jess accidentally choose flinstones...so our day in kbox ended with flinstones!!...hehe...
tue:pw meeting...sianz...at first said to meet at my hse...then yanru n wenbin came...we do so a short while sian diao...so we decided to go junsen's hse which i thot was near my hse but actually need to walk for quite some time de...(@_@)...in the end we oso din do much...Xp
today:went skul in e morning..did some chem olympiad selection test...hehehe....damn hard ahhhhhh!!!... ...
sianz

promos over!!!...bansai!!\(^_^)/....next wk only need go skul on fri...hehe...yesterday after e last paper went out with jess, si xuan, pee hua, ming shuan, rachel, xiao jia, veron, ulrica, huan jek, jun sen n wen bin...went to orchard...took neoprint...hehe... ... ...

gp paper yesterday was alright i guess...paper 1 was ok...did e qn on women's choice affecting the family...then paper 2 was a bit hard...didn't finish the aq..but overall think i can pass...meaning can get 45...Xp...mon self study...then econs on tue, maths on wed, chem on thur n phy on fri...followed by 1 whole wk of no skul...whoohoo.... :))

promos start le...wed gt chem spa skill a...quite manageable i guess...it's the same as one of thoses that we did before...today was physics spa skill a...um...dunno if it's easy or hard...then tml there'll be gp...jitters...self study on next mon..then it'll be econs, maths, chem n lastly phy...haiz... ...

月亮的秘密

在那蓝蓝的天空上，挂着银色的月亮，
张开温柔眼睛，找寻你的方向。

你是什么模样？是否跟我一样？
月亮弯弯月亮圆，岁月偷偷在变换。

阴晴远缺永远，到底幻梦一场，
有人忘记有人哭，有人伤心有人笑！

我把一切埋葬，天一样的翱翔，
飞呀飞呀我的梦，朝着月亮的方向。

did a personality disorder test...hehe...interesting result...

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid
78% 49%
Schizoid
70% 53%
Schizotypal
70% 53%
Antisocial
58% 47%
Borderline
46% 47%
Histrionic
34% 43%
Narcissistic
38% 41%
Avoidant
54% 39%
Dependent
58% 37%
Obsessive-Compulsive
50% 40%

*scores in gray are the average web score

can take the test at dis website: http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html

hehe...in skul now...these few days damn shiok...yesterday gp lesson was cancelled...econs was pushed forward so lesson ended at 11...hehe...then studied with yr, jess, sx, mx n ph til ard 2 then went back home...today phy lecture n prac was cancelled...maths n chem lecture pushed forward...so lesson ended at 12...hehe...then now in skul...supposedly studying..hehe...

skul start le...yesterday chem lecture in lt 2...aircon spoil again!!!....damn stuffy n hot...then today was raining in the morning...gt drenched...very cold sia....昨天是七月鬼节最后一天...空气里弥漫了烟的味道...竟然有人（ming shuan) 会喜欢这种味道...早上去学校的时候看到五个烟堆堆...紧张又刺激的一天...Xp....嗯，挺开心的...嘿嘿...

私の夢はどこですか... ...

今天又是个既快乐又伤心的日子...
快乐是因为我终于体会到了自己的存在感；
伤心是因为今天是我有生以来最倒霉的一天...唉！

别人问我为何喜欢留长指甲...我说因为长长的指甲让我的手指显得修长...
别人问我为何总把时间调快...我说因为调快的时间让我能够多做一些事...
其实真正的原因只有我自己最清楚...

不知为何...进入九月后心情就超低落... ...

promos in two wks time...jitters...n i jz realise that there's chem spa skill b nx thur...hurhur...there'll be judo grading tml...haiz...sian...nowadays whole day mugging for promo...so many papers to do... ...
trying hard not to think abt it... ...平常心...

我索求我得不到的，我得到我不索求的。

好累好烦哦...haiz...cher,有很多事要告诉你但不知怎样讲...等我理清了思绪再说吧...Xp...那天说的事我打算晚些再说...promos 要来了...从没像这次这么没自信过...T_T...好好加油吧！

一个幻影一场梦，
一个随时会消失的泡沫，
你能给我我要的安全感吗？

will someone pray for me?...
pray for my soul... ...

昨晚又做梦了...很美的一个梦...一个我很希望能成真的梦...不过人家都说梦是反的... ...
昨天在咖啡座里, cher 说我在烦事情...marion 问我在烦什么...我没答，因为我自己也不知道我到底在烦些什么...她又问说是不是学校里的事...我说了一句我从没想过却很真实的话...我说我从不烦学校里的事...她又问是家里的事吗...我沉默了许久才说，或许是吧...我以为我不在乎，直到人家问了才发现不是...

by the way...was having a little arguement with my mum jus now over some chem qn when a cockraoch climbed into my room...argh!!...then it decided to fly ard n landed on my mirror...then i think it was facinated by its mirror image coz it stay rooted there n keep waving its long antennas..gross...n i gt totally distracted by its presence that i lost my argument with mum...haiz..well it was really my points weren't strong... Xp

今天发生了许多事...心情起伏很大...是个快乐却又伤心的一天...很矛盾吧...
tcher's day eve...celebrations...haha...the concert in vj was nice...damn hilarious...hehe...gt videos showing some of thte tchers...hehe...but e atmosphere a bit nt high...then after that gt celebrate september babies + xiaojia's bday...then went cedar...met yy at bus stop outside my skul n went back together....hehe...watch the concert at cedar...the items quite simple but i was a bit touched...hehe..whole hall of ppl screaming...miss that feeling...but this yr every class wearing their class-t so very colourful in the hall...but i would prefer it if all had worn our blue uniform...after concert saw cher!!!!..hehe...talk to her for very long...talking to her is so therapatic...hehe..thanks cher...then i gt damn hungry and waited for marion n some other 4s ppl to arrive while groaning for food at the same time...in the end me n wan lin went with ard 8 or 9 4s ppl for lunch.. a bit strange though...saw xinyi..hehe...she became crazier n everybody wonders wat sajc has done to her...anyway went to a place in potong pasir...quite a nice place...一个挺有情调的小咖啡座...there was crayons on the table which was covered with white paper so u can actually draw on it while eating...anyway in the end i didn't feel like eating though i was still hungry and only ordered vanilla ice coffee..very sweet...xinyi they all were playing the games at the place..n me n cher a bit emoing...i was feeling tired n a bit sad...n well, we were writing n drawing stuff on the paper when cher showed me a sentence...n all of a sudden i felt like crying..well i did cry eventually (only a few drops of tears which i quickly rubbed away) but only cher saw...but marion was asking if i was crying...i said no...didn't want more ppl worrying over me...but i felt better afterwards...cher said i think too much n ask me not to think anymore...haiz..i'll try but i don't think i'll succeed...i'm still pondering over wat to do... ...

我以为我不会心痛，
我以为自己很潇洒，
我这才发现我是多么的不了解自己... ...

saturday is tcher's day...so tml there'll be celebrations in vj...which will end at ard 10am...then going back cedar...cedar 50th anniversary this yr...meeting yy tml then go there... :)...today there was supposed to be econs xtra lesson which clash with e chem H3 training class...most of the class didn't go...leaving only like 10 ppl...hehe...then we told the tutor that many gt the training thingy..so in the end the whole thing was cancelled...but feel a bit sad for the econs tutor...coz we gt quite a lot of things to do...then a lot of lessons were missed...but it's so hard to get the whole class to stay back coz gt other commitments...but in the end i didn't go for the H3 thing...went home...hehe...si xuan n ming shuan went bugis to buy tcher's day present..which will be shared among like 10 pple..hehe...today dunno why whole day feel so hungry...i ate breakfast in the morning...then first period in skul at ard 8.30am start to feel hungry liao...my stomach was growling like mad...then it was finally break at 11am...went to canteen n bought food from the stall with the shortest queue...hehe...ahhh...i never knew canteen food was that nice...Xp...then when i went home i felt hungry again n ate early dinner...now as i'm typing i hear my stomach growling again...T_T

hehe...yeseterday damn shiok..only gt 3 periods of lesson...hehe...chem lecture n chem tutorial...there was gp...but we went com lab to do some research...which is an absolute waste of time...then there was supposed to be econs tutrial...but our econs tutor didn't come...so we are released early!!!hooray!!!....then me, yanru, jess, si xuan, ming shuan n pee hua decided to go to marine parade for lunch...then saw wan xin, xing zhong, jonathan n benhamin oso going mp...huanjek, kenneth, wen bin, junsen, xiao jia n rachel came after some time too...in the end almost the whole class was at marine parade...went to banquet..then after eating most of them went back to school coz some gt chinese n some others went to study...me, jess n ming shuan wanted to go home...so we decided to go shop shop for a while before going off...hehe...damn fun...i said i wanted to go sembawang...but before that went to 77th street n ice lemon tee...hehe saw a damn nice tie in 77th street...very nice...>.<...shall ask my mum for it as bday present..hehe...oso went to esprit..then we go n try out the sunglasses there...hehe...damn funny...ming shuan like beetle...then we took a picture of three of us wearing sunglasses...(^_^)...after that we went diva...but ming shuan was like...waste a lot of time liao...mus go home mug..other ppl all mugging...so we went to diva for 2 min and went out... Xp

sat did the interview thingy..hehe..all the way at clementi...the interview lasted abt an hour...the time to travel there and back is more than that...but quite fruitful, i guess...(^_^)...呵呵...心情很好...因为知道了让我开心的事...不过前几个晚上又与我那久违了的梦境相遇了...呵呵...净是噩梦...嗯,好像我走在一座森林里...周围有许多高大的树...树与树之间挂满了很多网...我抬头看着那些忘...才发现网上有许多血淋淋的尸体...有些还被四分五裂了...后来发现自己也被困在了网上...有只超大型，长满毛的蜘蛛像我爬来...嗯，有种会死得很惨的预感...这是第一个梦境...第二个梦境...哦，好像又回到了那座森林...走过的路会消失的...我爬上一座很高的天桥...大概有三四楼吧...呵呵...结果我爬了上去后就险些掉下来...Xp... ... ... ...

haha...in school right now...just finish discussing pw...tml gt interview with some nus student....haiz...at 5pm at clementi...so far.... :(....promos coming in 1 mth's time...hehe...yestersday gt chem mock spa skill a...haha...screwed the whole thing cos i totally misunderstood the whole qn....haiz...but nvm...since it's just a mock...but shall study hard for the actual one...or else will just die!!.....then nx tue gt phy skill a mock spa....haiz....sianz....but....holiday's coming...whopeee..in two wk's time....n a special day is appraoching too...hehe...

咳...好无聊哦...闷...今天phy prac 做 skill a...呵呵...讲降落伞的...结果我和mingshuan 在纸上开始画画...嗯，先画了个降落伞，再加上个人....他在喊叫...后来我在他的下方画了个小水池...mingshuan说那个人掉下去一定会死....嘿嘿....她建议在水池里加只鳄鱼...哼哼...鳄鱼便张着嘴等着从天而降的食物...后来又加了一台盘旋在空中的直升机...直升机里的人无奈地看着落下去的同伴...再上面有个恶魔在微笑... Xp....oh, there was chem lecture test today...hehe...hehe...hehe...dead... ... ... ...

这个拜一是七月鬼节的第一天... :)...结果拜二早上上学时就在家楼下看到十二个烟堆堆...hehe...拜三本来想judo结束后大家一起去thaipan...结果boyang被linsen伤到脚...mr lee, audrey 带他去医院...一根骨断，两根骨折...昨天忘了怎的...雁如和jess又开始在追问我是谁了...呵呵...抱歉啦...但我是不会说的...不是不信任你们...只是自己的一些问题罢了...如果真要我说，我只能说：嗯... ...所以 ....可是 ....因此 ... (^_^).... ..... 突然觉得好像有人想把我给宰了..... .....

夜里，曾经下了一场雪吗？我曾经做了那个梦吗？
早晨，太阳出来了，雪悄悄融化了，梦静静散失了。
世界恢复原状，没有积雪的爪印，没有残梦的蹄痕，
一切若无其事，仿佛雪不曾来过，梦也不曾有过。

托新加坡生日的福...有连着五天的假期...呵呵...昨天去vivocity..原本是想整班人have a farewell dinner for mr seh...结果才十个人去...呵呵...the ten ppl are me,jess,sixuan,mingshuan,peehua,junsen,huanjek,kenneth,wenbin n lex plus 3 tchers,mr seh,mr ho n miss ng...很好玩...ate at earls' swensons...the food quite nice but a bit ex...then went to rooftop celebrate junsen's bday...呵呵...in the end he kana dunked...or rather he willingly went into the pool to stop us from nagging...then huanjek n wanxin pushed him into the water...hehe...very funny...stayed until ard 11pm then miss ng send us girls home...phoeb called juz now to give me a blessing...it's for this project called 100 thousand...if i'm nt wrong...it's organised by her church n hopes to bless 100 thousand people...anyway...i get to choose from a list wat i wanted to be blessed for...i think i chose family harmony, inner peace, financial freedom, n some other stuff that i can't rmb...hehe...anyway thanks for ur blessing,phoeb n for goodness' sake pls watch ur diet n health... :)

nx wk gt skul holiday...yayee!!!...1 mth n 4 more days will be my bdae...(^_^)...hehe...but,i'll be going for judo grading on that day...T_T...promos start on the 2nd wk of term 4...i think..haiz...sianz...nex tue maybe going sci centre for some pw stuff...
忘了是拜一还是拜二...我的安静和‘鬼样’又吓倒了思萱...她说总有一天她会被我吓出心脏病的...后来她和雁如说起这件事时...雁如说了一些‘发人省醒’话...我这才发现...嗯...我说不定有点心理不正常...Xp...拜三下课后有课外活动集体拍照...偏偏我忘了，下课后直接回家了...回了家我就吃饭然后睡觉...结果其他人打了一大堆的电话给我...我在睡觉所以没听到...又传了简讯...其他人又去问雁如她们...结果折腾了半天还是没能联络上我...嗯...很抱歉给大家带来那么多麻烦...不过我也发现原来自己那么会搞失踪...呵呵...说不定以后那天我死了也要等好几天别人才会发现...(O.O)

海面上也许波涛汹涌，那是人生；
但深深的海底安详沉静，那是梦一般的心灵。

today gt half day coz of college day tml...lesson ended at 11am...hehe...there was rehearsal for tml...our class n some others are supposed to stand at the gate down there n welcome the guests..hehe...but due to the rain there was no rehearsal...then out to bugis with jessica,ming shuan,peehua,rachel,benjamin,jun sen n huan jek...si xuan joined us after some time...yanru diden go coz she gt harmoc... :(....quite fun...hehe...ate at yoshinoya...then after go see see in wallet shop, diva, top shop... ...si xuan came when we were in diva...i went home after that...the others went to bugis street...

昨天好累哦...体育课的时候有napfa retest...跑了2.4km...累！...
陪着一个人一起跑，
看到两只为了保暖而把羽毛竖起的小鸟，
还有三架飞机飞过草场，
学校对面的那四幢楼一直杵在那里，
还有那些无数的树木，
然后六圈就跑完了... ...
timing是16.45sec...
雁如觉得很抱歉...说是她害我没法跑得快...其实无所谓啦...真的，我OK...我还想说的是，其实如果没有和她一起跑的话...我恐怕不会那么享受整个过程... :)...不过后来的柔道超累...因为有个女孩生病所以只剩下三个女孩对打....结果练习的时候被甩超多次...摔倒最后我脑麻掉了...只知道掉到地上后就马上爬起来...呵呵...今天去上课化学奥林匹克...呵呵...跟本就是在浪费时间...因为闷得要死...而且我完全不明白老师在说些什么... ...咳，累啊... ...

was late this morning...haiz...suay...the bus was damn packed n i cannot squeeze onto it so i had to wait for the next bus...this happen too someday last wk n there was another bus a few minutes right after e crowded bus was gone so i wasn't late...i thought e same would happen this wk but i waited for like 20 min before the next bus came...n two buses came at the same time...anyway when i reach skul i was late for abt 15min...normally a teacher would be standing at the gate n scoolding all those latecomers...but this morning no teacher was there...then the security guard was damn gd...he was like scanning my ezlink card...but after that cleared my latecoming record...hehe...then i went hall n there was spotcheck...hehe...gd thing now nails aren't checked... :p...yesterday after much nagging from yanru finally go cut hair le..actually is juz layer...then today yanru say my hair s shorter but not much difference...hehe...editing my eom now...haiz...dunno how to do...T_T...

very irritated...juz now wasted more than half an hr waiting for the damn bus to come...when i reach the bus stop the bus juz left...n it's a double-decker..so i waited for the next bus...which came after ages...but it stank so much...and so i waited for yet the next bus...poo...

yesterday wasn't a gd day...well... there was pe lesson n the tcher was...anyway...last pe lesson he asked us to put our bags in the hall n straight away go track n run for a few rounds...only the ct rep stay in the hall to report to him...but well, we didn't go run...we juz sat there...n when he asked us whether we gt run...benjamin said yes...the tcher asked how many rounds...he said 1 round...all the while the rest of us kept quiet...then the tcher asked:u think 1 round is enuf for u to keep fit?...so benjamin replied:ok,we'll go run.how many rounds?...n the tcher started nagging abt how we should know ourselves how much excercise we need n we should nt have asked this type of qn..n bah blah blah...then so we said we'll run 2 rounds...n he continued to nagged...blah blah blah...in the end he said we muz run at least 3 to 4 rounds...but most of the ppl inly ran 1 or 2 rounds...:D...then we were supposed to learn tennis for pe but he said something abt nt enuf time left blah blah blah...so he wanted us to play bball...but we told him last term learn already...play until sian liao...then he say our attitude gt problem coz no one can so sure say that he has learnt to play a game coz there's a lot to learn...anyway he nagged alot n in the end we did nothing but some stupid excercise...in front of the hall...on the stage...coz the hall was occupied by others playing badminton...
then during judo in the afternoon...well..it wasn't very tiring...but half way thru the trainnig sensei said he's gonna get us an assistant coach n hopefully by next yr the assistant coach can take us over n sensei is nt gonna teach us anymore...audrey very upset by this... ...

haha...gt back gp n econs paper yesterday...T_T...gp juz pass...and econs fail by 1 mark...haiz...guess i'll have to buck up...yesterday also meet up with qinghua at mp library...i went back home after school end before going to e library...then on the way to library it started pouring n i gt drenched...then when i went back home..the sun was super big...today very sian...was almost dozing off during maths n chem lecture...n also gt phy mock spa today...quite eassy...abt circuits...phy lecture to day was terrible...i don't like e lecturerer...half of the ppl pon lecture...then the lecturerer very niao one...keep insisting on silence...and she dunno how to tech using the ppt slide...keep flipping here n there..front n back...then very hard for us to copy notes...then before she start she say if we keep quiet maybe can finish the lecture fast and let us off early...then in the end...yeah...she did finish the lecture early by abt 25 min...then she say she'll continue with the tutorial...in the end...she release us late by 5 min....$&%^#%!!!!.....

today quite slack...no pw coz miss ng gt some course...then gp need find a book from library n do book review...hehe...during econs tcher say she dun remember if anyone from our class gt C...n C is e minimum requirement to take H3 econs...heck...i think i'll fail badly for econs...will be getting back gp paper next mon...yesterday no training..meeting from 6pm to 8pm plus to talk abt captaincy...damn long....tcher in charge say not to tell others abt this...anyway...the whole exco change after yesterday...the tcher was telling e 'former' captain that even though he's no longer the captain...he still wish to stay in the cca...as this shows that he is mature enough n the tcher will be able to write him a good testimonial at thte end of two years...but...this morning he told me n audrey that he quited judo... ...ummm...i think this gives the impression that he join judo only because he wanna be the captain...if he cannot be the captain he juz quit...haiz...dunno how to do the damn book review... ...T_T

today is friday the 13th... ...nothing happened... ...

judo training tml change to thur...tml suppose to help sort of tutor qinghua but couldn't sqeeze out the time...then change to next mon...haiz...what to say leh...oh yah fish...waiting for u... ... :)

hehe...gt back chem paper today...gt A!!!...(^_^)...yanru wasn't happy with her maths result n si xuan by teeny weeny little bit can pass le... :(....econs paper will be out next wed during lecture...jitters...

有些人不必等待，
有些人不能挽留，
有些人分开了还是爱着，
有些人在一起却是陌生人。

hehe...the past week was a bit freaky?hectic?...dunno how to describe...anyway lessons start proper on tue...maths tutorial went a bit wrong...well...we were suppose to finish our summation tutorial n mr ho's gonna go thru it in class...but more than half of the class didn't do it...including me...Xp...so he got mad....and after a few minuters of staring at us...he stormed out of the class...hehe....then on wed...econs lecture ended 15 min earlier so me, yanru, jessica n mingshuan went to marine parade to eat lunch...si xuan gt chinese n pee hua gt pw so they diden go...at first wanna go taipan but jess called there n they say thatthey gt renovation or smthing but we were out of schoool liao n dun feel like going back so in the end we went mp n ate at banquent...bought durian puff n shared...(^_^)...then we went giant n bought the same drink...the bottle very cut...hehe...after that we went back n i met up woth audrey, wan xin n yee ling...discussed abt revoting for judo captain n wrote our votes...then after judo training...hehehe...christopher was so damn reluctent to give in n agree to the revote when 8 out of9 ppl were against him being the captain....the (main) tcher-in -charge diden go for taining so we decided to settle the matter next wed...then on thur audrey was damn sad coz she say that all the seniors (juz 4 of them) n the tcher in charge think that she's the one hu started all this fuss... n the tcher threatened that if she keep on making such a fuss he'll juz closed down judo...n audrey's like...how can he do such a thing?!...results for phy mid yr was out on wed...gt 68...B...actually nt bad lah...given only5/25 ppl in our class gt A but i realise that i can get A too if not for some careless mistakes...hehe...and last night sms maths tcher n maths i gt 82!!!...hehe..happy...will be getting back chem paper nexy wk...hope to get at least C...but heard that 70% of the cohort failed...*shudders*...n econs n gp paper will only be given out next next wk...juz hope too pass these two subjuects...no higher hopes...hehehe...

haiz...butt pain after so much cycling yesterday... T_T

muahahaha....mid year finally over!!!!....(^_^)...i think i'll flunk my GP n econs...T_T...but i guess i did ok for maths phy n chem though chem mcq today was totally a killer...but the rest of the paper was quite manageable with a bit of hiccups...after the paper went to marine parade meeet up with phoeb... :D...we walked back to haig girl's...phoeb say she miss the food there...we reached there at around 11.45am...security guaurd didn't allow us in!!!!!...she said muz wait until 1pm when school release then we can go in...so we walked out n i was like telling phoeb...why not we go in by side gate or back gate...so we walked half a round round the building n we saw this small gate near the dustbin...i was wondering how to climb over it when phoeb juz pushed it open...hehe...but in the end we still ganna chased out to the waiting area...played cards there n wasted 1 hr...in the end we didn't eat lunch at hgs coz the food there doesn't look nice...walked all the way back to marine parade n ate at banquet...then went to phoeb's hse n baked gingerbread cookies!!... :)...after went ecp cycling... i almost tumbled over a few times....the last time i cycled was many many yrs ago n i fell n since then diden dare ride bike anymore...went cycling for abt an hr then came home... tired!...

gosh...so long neva blog le...i'll keep this post short sharp n sweet...anyway mugging whole for mye next wk...T_T...sobs...i think i'll flunk econs...haiz...i'll post a more detailed post on my trip to shanghai when i'm free...haiz...two wks there is juz nt enuf...n i think i'm starting to like shaghai more n more...the streets n buses r so nt crowded like last time...i thinl the next time i go back will be in 2009 june...i'll stay for at least a mth... ...

东方明珠

在东方明珠上拍的...有雾，所以视野不是很好,看不清...妈说：说好听的像在仙境，说难听的远处那一栋栋的高楼大厦有点儿像墓碑...

东方明珠的下方...河就是黄浦江

太空馆里的robot...太空馆在90米高的第一个球里...

在太空馆里俯视上海市... :)

从东方明珠看晚上的外滩...很美吧!

上海市发展陈列馆里的哈哈镜...(^_^)

晚上的东方明珠

啊哈哈...来了上海我反而水土不服了...拜二晚上小施大妈妈请咱们吃了顿饭...因前一天已有了吃太多而不舒服的先例...所以当晚没敢吃太多...吃完后和爸妈搭taxi去外滩...再从那儿沿着南京路一路走到西藏路...haiz...外滩可真漂亮...说老实话，比新加坡还美呢...晚上霓虹灯特多...真不明白为啥新加坡没霓虹灯...可走到南京路一半时，肚子又开始闹了...妈说是不是我胃有问题，因为爸妈的胃都不好...爸说也许是我水土不服...昨天中午午餐吃的是buffet...那价钱吓死人...一人一百五十人民币再加消费税...结果那顿午餐吃掉了九百多...虽然价钱那么贵，可也没啥特别好吃的...普普通通...呵，吃完后...胃又觉得不舒服了...
昨天吃午餐前去拜访了太姥姥... 也就是爸爸的姥姥，奶奶的妈妈...其实是stepmother...还有姨婆和姨公（应该是这么称呼的吧）...就是爸爸的阿姨和姨父，奶奶的妹妹和妹夫...下午吃了午餐后...又去拜访了太舅公...就是爸爸的舅公，爷爷的舅舅...还有表爷爷和表奶奶...就是爸爸的表叔和他的妻子...也就是爷爷的表弟和妻子...haiz...爷爷有很多弟妹（他是家中老大）...大概五个吧...记不清楚了...奶奶也有五个兄弟姐妹...所以我的（远房）亲戚特别多...拜六奶奶的70生日大寿得和这些什么表啥堂啥的见面了...真不知怎么称呼他们...1995年来新加坡时...我这一代姓罗的就我一个...现在可好了，多了三四个小不点了...可我看他们的所有年龄加起来也不超过我的年龄...感觉自己好老哦!!! T_T...
昨天晚上上了东方明珠...三个球都去了...在上面有种高高在上的感觉，可惜上海的空气不是最好，看不远...本来想观光完东方明珠后坐游轮游览黄浦江...可惜我们在东方明珠里呆得太长...没时间...不过在东方明珠上看到夜里的外滩...噢，美呆了!!

haha...i'm here again!!! (^_^)...4th day in shanghai liao...time flies...sun morning went to see granma n granpa's new hse...then ate a lot for lunch...after that me n pa n ma went to shop for furniture....ooo...the stench of all those wood and paint + my too full belly made me almost wanna puke....then yesterday continued shopping for furniture...was feeling much better after a nite's rest...then had dinner at a restaurant with one of dad's close fren n his wife...tonight...gonna have another dinner at a restaurant with mum's fren...hehe...there's so much things to eat here and all those can't be found in singapore....i'm trying my best nt to gain weight this two wks in shanghai but i'm finding it hard... :)...

yoyo...hehe...in shanghai rite now... :)...damn shiok ah...muahahahaha....can sleep longer...play e whole day...and best still: NO HOMEWORK!!!!...hahaha...but actually gt bring 1 chem and 1 phy paper but like no time to do leh...Xp...anyway...很 happy 就对了...(^_^)

那位可爱的少女，
就像一颗香甜的苹果。
虽然有些酸涩，
但却非常甜美！
啊 啊~
如果咬下去，可是会流血的。

hehe...today damn shiok...gt full day off!!!! muahahaha...tml going back liao...excited...(^_^)...so i changed my blogskin..nice rite?....Xp...hehe...did another test juz now...dunno if it's accurate...been doing many stupid tests nowadays...coz nothing to do...no blogs to read...fish:*hinthint*...;)...anyway,this my result for the test:
Your Score: ISFJ - The Protector
You scored 50 I versus E, 60 N versus S, 40 F versus T, and 80 J versus P!
Your ideal romantic partner is known as the proptector. As a romantic partner, this type is generous and gentle. Occasionally they may be taken for granted because of this fact. they are tireless in providing acts of service for their loved ones. They run the risk of always being exhausted because they won't say no to their partners. They are sensitive to criticism and will withdraw rather than fight back. They wish to be appreciated for their loyalty and whole hearted nuturing. Their values must be respected and they thrive on consideration and kindness.
The group summary: Guardians (SJ)
The Type Summary: ISFJ

haha...in skul library now doing pw...T_T...need write invitation letter to invite skuls to our event...juz now trying to find how much it cost to book the science centre..few days ago jan sen wrote an email to them which till now they still haven reply...so we decide to call them...then wen bin n jan sen keep pushing to each other to call the place...i'm like...fine, i'll call...hehe...but in the end after waiting for 4-5 sec there was some sound but i couldn't catch it...(^_^)...then we found another number and wen bin called....finally gt ppl voice...and it gave us the same number that i called...hehehe...finish invitatation letter liao... :)

haha...i'm here to blog again...hehe...dunno wat to write leh...this whole wk si xuan nt in skul coz she gt golf competition..hehe...yesterday very funny...our class gt 4 ppl didn't cum skul yesterday...so our maths tcher was like asking how cum gt so little ppl...so sumone said:huan jek gt bowling competition, si xuan gt golf,kenneth sick, jun sen(a guy) gt cramp...n my maths tcher was like:er,that kind of excuse more often cum from girls... :)...anyway...i'm going back to shanghai in like 3 more days...(^_^)...hehe,so excited...but i'll only stay till 8 jun then cum back nid study for mid-yr exam which is like rite after the hols...anyway, gonna change blogskin liao....

天空因为云的缠绵而有了雨季；大地因为树的缠绵而有了森林；
石头的缠绵产生了山脉；小溪的缠绵产生了江河；
月亮的缠绵而有了潮汐；宇宙的缠绵灿烂了星空；
光的缠绵变幻着七彩斑纹；影的缠绵朦胧着迷幻空灵；
生命的缠绵有了一代代优秀的子孙；岁月的缠绵有了一段难忘的历史。


hehe...2nd time posting in e same day le...but i dunno wat to say leh...(^_^)...anyways...i went to the site u recommeded,fish...but very confusing leh...???....where to go ah?...Xp

haiz...in skul now...doing some research on gender idscrimination again...later after GP our class suppose to ga support boys soccer team...but i think alot of ppl ponning...i oso going to pon...si xuan oso doing research now...n she look so serious that i thought she doing serious stuff...then she ask me go look at her com...in the end i realise she was doodling using some drawing software... :)...ok...need to go liao... (^_^)

%*#^%@....haizz..damn tired lah...ran 2.4 today...timing is 16.33...i passed...hehe...but how i wish i failed since i didn't pass shuttle run too....Xp...i think i very qian4 bian3...Xp...anyway....today very uncomfortable...gt sore throat...runny nose...a bit of tummy ache...a bit of headache...sneezing once every 1/2 hr....leg muscle aching after running...T_T...later still gt judo...haiz...n i muz finish my part for 2nd draft of gpp by 4.15pm today.....#*^%*$!!!...arhhhh!!!!....i feel like sleeping...Zzzz...

in skul now...doing some research on gender discrimination in europe...Xp...the econs test i gt 10/25...n i did'nt re-take...haiz...i think nowadays i've been damn frequent in updating my blog...rite,fish?...(^_^)...but like gt nothing to write...oh later our whole class is suppose to go down to SBA to support our bball boys in the competition against hci...so that means can miss econs lesson...:)...but the whole competition will like end at ard 4...and that's so late...so dunno if i'll pon or nt...hehe...need to go liao...:)

有的人努力寻找最宝贵的东西，却不知所寻之物就在身边；
有的人从开始便懂得好好珍惜，平静而满足地生活；
有的人在两个宝贵间做了取舍，最后得到了幸福。

did the tarot card test again...end up with this:

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

As the fire died and the white round moon
Disappeared behind purple mountains,
The image of your face grew indistinct;
But not the touch of your hand or the sound of your voice,
Beloved and familiar in the darkness.

haiz..doing gpp now...after much discussion...my grp decided to change the whole event so need to redo everything...T_T...need to find some professor from one of the uni to be our guest-of-honour...nowadays very sian ah...today gt econs test...flunked it terribly...neva prepare n so many other ppl in my class oso neva prepare...somore today half the class is absent...gt syf...competition...yada yada...then we tried to negotiate with our econs teacher to postpone the test to next mon..but she don't allow... :(...but in the end after the test...after much haggling with us she decided to look thru our scripts n let those hu gt 15/25 and below to retake the test next mon if they wan to...

in skul library now...doing eom...T_T...juz now went back cedar to take o lvl cert...thought i could meet up with grace...in e end it was marking day for e sec 4s so diden get to see her.. :(... now suppose to hav soccernomics...some symposium thingy... it's from 2.30pm~5pm...but need do this eom...so i pon...muahaha...haiz...later gt judo...last wk i pon judo...said i was sick... :)...and i forgot to cut my nails...hope the teacher wun check... Xp

hehe...today stayed back after skul for a while to discuss PW...after much discussion...we decided to change our event from symposium to some kind of treasure hunt...jansen slow to respond...after we settled on the event he was like:so wat abt the symposium?are we going to hold it?...so the rest of us all bursted out laughing...haiz...tml gt phy spa n i dunno anything....then thurs gt chem spa...but i gt more confidence in chem spa...at least the teacher gt teach us how to write e report and stuff...but phy like there's no guideline...muz oso do eom by wed...dunno how to do...T_T...i feel like doing tml...but tml no more time liao..haiz... :(

爱的日子里有不爱的决定。
泪的眼睛里有微笑的表情。
黑白的梦里有彩色的花火。

haiz...wed pe gt napfa test...5 items...haiz...nt satisfactory...T_T...thur was si xuan's b/dae...wed went parkway with yanru n jessica to buy bdae pressie for her...we planned to buy file for her...n diden realise buying a file was such a tough job...it's either e colour's nt right...or too thin..or there's no clip...but in the end we manage to find an orange file for her... :)...today very sian ah...3 periods of econs+2 periods of Gp+1 period of physics tutorial+2 periods of PW...str thru with no breaks in between...giddy...after lesson, then we went n celebrate all e may babies' bdae...total 5 of 'em...benjamin n pee hua went n bought e cake from secret recipe...cake vv nice...but damn ex too...1/2kg cake:$45...

浪花是云朵的倒影，湖水是天空的倒影。
黑夜是白天的倒影，秋天是春天的倒影。
眼前的你，是梦里的他的倒影。

haiz...waited so long for pw grouping to be revealed...n e result is finally out lsat fri...ppl in my grp:yanru,ulrica,jan sen,wen bin...i can't say i'm very happy...but at least i had expected yanru to be in my grp...ulrica cried somore...but i can't blame her...afterall she's nt grped with her frenz...but dunno why seeing her cry juz made me huo3 da4...but at least she diden sulk and wasn't grumpy when it came to grp discussion...si xuan n jessica are in e same grp...n all grp member damn nice...gt jun sen,lex n benjamin...hehe...i think that's like e nicest grp in our class...audrey's grp oso nt bad...gt jing xuan, ming xuan, willy n christopher...all of them can work well with each other... ...haiz...gt alot of pimple...T_T

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

天使们都睡了吗？
月光像一片水色轻纱，微风清凉，隐约还飘来柑橘花的芳香。
这样蜜糖似的夜，是个做梦的好天气呢。... ...
也许让你无法入梦的，正是你强烈的入梦欲望。
欲望使你焦虑。焦虑使你不能进入天使们的国度。
所以你必须忘记入梦的欲望，就像鱼儿忘记海洋，飞鸟忘记天空。
当你不在乎，你才能真正放轻松。
当你不追求，你曾经苦苦追求的才会反过来亲近你。

haiz...sian...tml still muz go skul for parent-teaacher session... ...went out with fish last friday...she went back on sun...:(...
hehe,yesterday during math lecture chao funny...wen bin gt chewing gum...n it gt passed ard...eurica was like:wah, gt sweet ah...hehe...then after a few minute wen bin was like:eh, it's chewing gum hor,nt sweet, dun swallow...then somewhen in the middle of lecture..i bu4 xiao3 xin1 swallowed the chewing gum...so i told yan ru hu was sitting deside me:um, i think i swallowed the chewing gum...she laughed and sixuan asked wat happened..so si xuan knew dat i swallowed the chewing gum n she laughed out loud... hehehe...

10 Ways of Committing Suicide:

1. Sleeping pills
You get to doze off while dying but what if you drool? A bit disgusting, huh?

2. Cut wrist
Your blood oozes out slowly and you die a slow death. The blood will make a mess of your room and the poor maid has extra work to do with all those scrubbing of blood stains.

3. Jump off building
You can feel the sensation of flying for a second or two but it is a terrible blow to the soul when your body suddenly slams on the hard ground.

4. Gas poisoning
Another way for slow death but some people may dislike foul-smelling gases.

5. Bang head on wall
This is definitely a pain way of dying. Furthermore, if you head is too hard, there may be a dent on the wall. Your poor parents will then have to spend extra $$ to repair the wall.

6. Lie on the MRT track and get run over by a MRT
This is a once in a lifetime experience. How many would actually dare lie on the MRT track. However, you leave a bad image of death with all those squashed guts and torn flesh.

7. Get involved in a car accident
Not a very successful way to die. You may end up in the hospital with many tubes going in and out of your body. Your perfect skin would then be destroyed by all those needles.

8. Suffocate yourself by tying a plastic bag over your head or Hanging
You end up having a bluish-purple head which doesn’t look really nice.

9. Play with fire
Your fair, crystal-clear skin that you had painstakingly achieved will end up being black n burnt. All those $$ spent on facial masks and whitening cream will go to waste.

10. Drinking all sorts of detergents, lotions etc.
You get to taste and flavor different brands of detergent and decide for your mum which one is the best.

呵呵...刚生病痊愈...拜六就开始发烧了...37.8度...原本不想去speech day...后来吃了点退烧药...才勉强爬了过去...到了晚上...哦不，是凌晨了...我开始猛发抖...爸妈送我去医院...回来的路上吐了...拜天...最严重的一天...喉咙超痛，根本就不能讲话...又吐了两次...发烧发到39.7度...一整天都在睡觉...拜一，好点儿了...烧退到38度...能说话了...但声音超低...今天，呵呵，终于好了...不过昨天和今天没去上课...(^_^)...可是明天要交PI...我还没做...不会做...怎么办？... T_T

sport's day today...a bit boring...in the end, me, yanru, sixuan, jessica, audrey, mingshuan, lex n willy went tree house play cards...hohoho...i won so many games....muahahaha...tml gt speech day...haiz...still muz get up very early coz need reach cedar @ ard 7.30am.... T_T...boohoo...dunno wat to do for PW...dunno how to do...n the draft for PI is due next wk wed le...then still gt econs essay which is due on 09/04...argh!!!
today gt back chem test...i gt 9.5/15...si xuan gt 10/15...during e test she was sitting beside me n asking me how to do n copying from me...in the end she gt higher than me...hehe...yanru said sad life...hehe...Xp...so far my physics test is e best one...15/20... (^_^)...but i failed terribly for econs...8.5/30...n e highest in our class was 28.5/30...
hehe...fish coming back tonight... :)...

haiz...i think i found another reason to dislike judo...it cause me to chip my finger nails!!!!...boohoo...i think it's known fact that i keep long n sharp nails...but now bcoz of judo...four of my nails are short n flat... T_T...wed training, someone broke his arm...another sprained his leg muscle...n i gt stiff neck...haiz...today lesson ended at 3 then stayed back n played cards... (^_^)...hehe...played brigde...dai di...minimise...n speed/stress...so long never play this game le...

夜里，曾经下了一场雪吗？我曾经做了那个梦吗？
早晨，太阳出来了，雪悄悄融化了，梦静静散失了。
世界恢复原状，没有积雪的爪印，没有残梦的蹄痕，
一切若无其事，仿佛雪不曾来过，梦也不曾有过。

haiz...in skul com lab now...pw briefing juz ended n waiting for judo to start...gt 2 hours to rot... T_T....sianzz....reading fish's blog now...hehe...interesting...looks like she's having a whole lot of fun... :) ...haiz....n now i felt guilty for nt blogging more...hehe...(^_^)...
judo's getting more tiring n boring n i'm starting to dread the training everywk...i'm even thinking of qiuting but yanru asked me nt to...thing is, it's a gd cca suitable for me since there's only one training a wk...doesn't take up much time...n can give me pretty gdrecord after e two yrs...if i quit, then i dunno wat else to join...sumore i already bought e judogi for like 50 bucks n if i quit i dunno wat to do with it n it'll be such a waste of $$...haiz...seems like i'm stuck in judo... ...
haiz...being having dreams again these few nights but always cannot rmb wat they r...sad...
haiz,fish,wat u wan me to say?...i dunno wat to say liao...oh, n reading ur blog makes me miss u more... :(...

haiz...two wk never post le...hehe...haiz...a lot of things happen lah...good n bad things..so my heart was like taking a roller-coaster ride... (^_^)
last tue...me,si xuan,jessica n christabel went for phy lecture...but e teacher never come for like 10min...so we decided to pon lecture n go play cards instead...n hence,e four of us siao1 sa3 de walk out of e LT...we went to e canteen...n ganna caught by miss ng...haiz... then we went somewhere else...n played cards n talk talk...
e next day...miss ng talked to e class abt this thing...she diden mention names lah...but e way she say is like everything we do is wrong...ok,i noe ponning lecture is bad n we r at fault...but when she saw us at e canteen buying stuff to eat...she told us to finish up n go back to lecture...then e next day she said we wanted to finish up our food n took a long time...yada yada...n a lot of other stuff...
last wed judo training was changed to fri...i diden feel like4 training so i juz said i was sick...sensei was a bit bad mood last fri coz very little ppl went for training n like 3 of them(including me) juz sat there n watch...
then this mon...we gt full day off...thanx to e recent batch of graduate...so me,yan ru, si xuan,jessica,christabel n audrey went out to have some fun...we went kbox...hehe...then after played cards...
tue gt class outing...purpose was for class bonding...bt i diden go...hehe...i heard from thoses hu went that nt much bonding was done...hehehehe...
then hor...wed n thur was orientation 2 for 2nd intakers...damn boring...wed half way thru,me,yanru,si xuan,jessica,jing xuan,jan sen,willy n christopher pon...we went parkway...then on thur...whole class pon halfway...then today...everything back to normal...lessons....to day oso gt judo training...but nt that tiring...before training i like gt 3 hrs of free time n to tally dunno wat to do...in e end played cards with 4 others hu oso gt free time to spend...hehe...
for 2nd intake...our class gt 6 ppl going out...christabel went to acs(i)...5 newcomers...

哈,anti-social?...好久没听到的字眼噢...我?anti-social?...不错，我就是anti-social...怎样?...不过话说回来，如果现在的我叫anti-social...那我过去的生活叫啥?...
Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in.
The city of angels
Lovely as I am
Lonely as I am
Together we cry.

最近总是很累...没力气笑...总觉得板着脸比较轻松...其他人就以为我在生气...其实我就是这样的嘛...唉，可见做好人难哟...

chinese new year's coming...today vj gt 1.5 hr concert...nt bad...hehe...my mortal finally replied to me...he gave me some gummy...at first i thought it was melted chocolate coz very soft...n he was lyke thanking me for e valentine's day gift???...but i never give him anything... ...hurhur...so strange...christabel's going acs(i) for the IB course down there...so sad... :(...one less ppl to play bridge with...hehe...played bridge with her on one fine day n she sorta gt addicted and brought her own cards and keep asking us(me,yanru,sixuan,jessica) to play with her...hehe...so fun...thinking of applying for vjc scholarship...but aiyah...a bit lazy to write e essay... ...

Happy Chinese New Year!! (^_^)

Today a plum leaf fell onto my shoulder.
I could not feel its weight,
though i knew it was there --
tiny and lovely -- resting easy,
desiring no other place
but the padded seam of my tunic,
until a breeze came to lift it away.
I watched it float and drift and turn
as I smile in contentment,
the sun a caress upon my cheek;
I remembered your touch
in the moonlight.

o lvl results is out!
well...i'm pretty satisfied with my results...my L1R5 is 7...better than wat i expected which is 8...i gt A1 for combined humanities...woohoo!! :)...then my english gt B3 which is mt normal standard...but today a bit sad lah...so many ppl crying...yy n verena cried so much...they couldn't stay in hwachong...then ale may or may nt stay in vj...she might need to appeal...sad... ...

事已成定局，只想告诉大家：如果你为错过太阳而流了泪，你也将为错过繁星而黯然神伤。

往后的路，一定要加油喔！ (^_^)

wed stayed back for banner painting...then only like me, audrey n willy down there...audrey say ulrica supposed to be down there to help draw the pig...but she diden turn up...after that gt judo...very tired ah...then i chipped my nail... T_T...
then hor...today went to pasir ris park with audrey to survey the place for slv...jansen n christopher went oso...gt a treat from audrey to satay...nice...n the wind down there very comfy... :)... haiz...audrey called juz now saying that there's only 10 plus kids for slv...

a math equation for bo liao ppl to solve:
2315x080514x160509/0621-190821/242105-120115x190809+0405.07210114+030801-14051407-1209/0123456789=121.7872789
another one:
2001+19082115+2315x130514/020114+2509x110109+190809x030821+24090114/120905/080514-0123456789= -80280425.18
one last one:
2315x24090114/260109/030109-0601+24090114/2315x130514-020114+251521x0221/19080115x180514-0221/2409x08210114+15+040109+1209/0405.262115/0601x0123456789=4.906222908x10^ 15

哈哈...谁要是看得懂上面那一长串数字...我完全服了你。

我听爷爷讲了一个故事
故事里的事是那昨天的事
故事里的事 说是就是不是也是
故事里的事 说不是就不是也是

今天早上差点迟到...七点多才醒来...没来得及吃早餐...匆匆忙忙拦了辆德士...还好没迟到...今天上数学课，老师发飙了...真庆幸自己在cedar受了三年的“磨练”... 呵呵... :)

haiz...having a terrible pimple outbreak for e past few days... :( ...last fri gt og bbq at east coast park...bt i only went for like 1/2 an hr...then sat gt class outing...we played pool at marina square...first time playing so yup...made a fool of myself...yanru sian sian...dun like to play pool...so standing at e side watching me make a fool of myself...after that, whole lot of us go makan n chit-chat...after that the rest go watch movie...me n yanru left...then...it's so embarassing...we couldn''t find our way out!!!...we make one big circle and went back to where we started n saw the rest still there...at first we wanted to like ask 'em for directions bt yanru saw the sign board leading us to citylink...by that time both of us r laughing like mad...
changed uniform with gaoyan on tue...she's from ahs...then yanru whole day saying she can't get used to me wearing white uniform...today gt judo...very tiring... n i'm breaking my mum's golden rule of sleeping by 10pm... :)
ppl saying o lvl result will be out on 5 feb...i so dread yet anticipate that day... T_T

mon gt sea regatta....went to east coast park...practically everybody gt dumped into the sea...and i end up being darker..T_T... but i guess i should be happy that i didn't get sun-burnt... ... haiz...it's such a hectic week in vj...n i think i'll be joining judo as cca...a bit unexpected...

鱼儿不需要知道海洋，因为鱼儿已在海洋里。
飞鸟不需要知道天空，因为飞鸟已在天空中。
你不需要追求梦境，因为梦境就在你心底。

muahahaha...it's 2007 and i've survived 3days of orientation in vj... it was fun... :) ... but quite tiring...my arm muscle aching right now... T_T... hehehe...my og grp won during orientation...hahaha...go CREON!!!!...^.^ ... gt sea sport carnival next mon @ east coast park... ... ... ...
being having (bad) dreams again since e last few days of 2006 until now...and i'm having fitful sleep... ... ...