Confessions and Resolutions

So I haven't stepped on the weighing machine for about 1 year (or maybe longer), and I know I have been gaining weight. After all, I have been snacking a lot with zero physical activities to burn off the calories that I had shamelessly and un-hesitantly absorbed (who could resist that refreshing cuppa milk tea with its chewy pearls in the midst of the hot weather? or the burst of flavours from the ever-increasing ice-cream outlets sprouting up in all corners of Singapore? or the tiny bites of joy and sweetness to keep lethargy and boredom at bay during lessons?).

And now, with J's endless taunting of my ever-expanding tummy, I am starting to examine my own body and I have to say I am highly alarmed. I finally plucked up the courage to step on the weighing machine again today and lo and behold, the number displayed jumped past my delusional 54kg!! (which is already bad enough to begin with >.<) I shall not announce my exact weight as I would still like to maintain whatever image left of me, but anyways, J's taunting and the number on my weighing machine has raised a high alarm and I am looking at my weight issue seriously.

I have in fact, started on simple workouts (mainly squats and sit-ups) for the past week since school started, and boy, it's tough! Having not exercised for so long, my body felt so rusty and badly out of condition. :((

BUT, I have resolved (I hate using this word because I rarely keep to my resolutions but let's hope it'll be an exception this time round) I shall continue with my simple workouts and add some cardio activities (jogging/skipping) for the coming days. Cardio workouts' really effective, or that's what everyone else says on the internet.

So, 30-45 min for each jogging/skipping session and at least 4 sessions a week. I really hope I can pull this through!

Hwaiting~!

p.s. and I read somewhere that green tea boosts the metabolism rate, so it shall be my new drink of the day instead of coffee from now on. :)

我 < 3 帅哥

这两天走运，总在路上看到帅哥。
昨天看到一位长得像韩星李准基的，今天看到一位长得像仔仔的。那位长得像仔仔的相似度应该有80%吧！(*o*)

喜欢、不喜欢

男生如果不喜欢你，

不会坐在你旁边听你唠叨一整晚，

也不会听你唠叨完了陪你吃宵夜，

更不会吃宵夜时贴心地帮你夹菜。

男生如果不在意你，

不会三不五十地逗你开心，

也不会计算着多久没见面，

更不会找各种借口见你

男生如果在意你，

即使嘴里说不愿意，却还是送你到家门口，

(Update: This post was a draft that was somehow unpublished. It was written long ago when things were still going sweet between us. I was changing my blog layout and tidying up my old posts and I guessed I published it by accident. Reading this now, at least it's proof that things used to be good. I hope to remember these good times and only these.)

I will be strong!

Received an unexpected call a few days ago from the ex.
Turns out he was in school for his dental checkup and the call was to check if I was in school (to presumably meet me for a short catch up). I was still sleeping then (even though it was almost 11am at the time) and thus ended the call with a curt reply that school has yet to start for me and went back to sleep (on hindsight, I wonder if my tone was hostile :/). When I finally woke up about an hour later, I started to question the existence of the call and I had to check the call history.
Time flies. It was been more than a year since the start of that relationship. One year ago, I had received similar calls and would have happily agreed to meet up with him. Now, one year later, I only thought how spontaneous and inconsiderate he is.

I am feeling a slight bitterness and resentment. I know the reason for these feelings. I just hope that I can let everything begone.

And I hope I never have to be troubled by affairs of the heart ever again.

No, I mean, I hope my heart will grow stronger, strong enough to withstand all the nonsense.

Homo...?

这几天在看仪部几年前的偶像剧，叫“死神少女”，题材涉及当今的社会问题及一些青少年的烦恼，如自杀，同性恋，校凌等。其中一个单位描述了一段三角恋，值得一提的是，三位主角都是女生。看着剧，我想到了自己，我有点迷惑。。。