Week of Ups and Downs

My mood has been going through a hell ride of roller-coaster lately and my menstrual cycle has been rather irregular, probably due to stress/my screwed-up sleep cycle/skipping meals etc.
(*note to self to go for a check-up soon*).

But I do have to admit that I have been losing my temper more often than usual to a particular person. Well, I had my reasons, but still, I have to sincerely apologize for my temperamental behavior. m(-.-)m

(start of rant...)
I lost my cool on Monday, when the deadline to submit an assignment pressed on me and you were still like, no idea what was going on. And you gave the wrong answer! :( The reason I got so worked up was because I felt that you could have easily understood and solved these questions because it wasn't out of your capability! You just didn't bother to pay attention in class (or at least that was what I thought then)!

As for today (Sunday), well, I got up on the wrong side of the bed to begin with. I was really unprepared for the meeting and my brain was just not functioning. (My sleep cycle is screwed. I am suspecting insomnia as the cause. I am seriously contemplating sleeping pills. But, I digress.) Anyway, so you settling down in Starbucks despite me already being in somewhere else in utown kinda ticked me off. And I guess, given your intelligence, you know what I meant when I said the meeting was unnecessary. I felt like we wasted each other's time. And your time is always oh-so-precious (I am not being sarcastic, this is what I truly felt). Given the way we had worked with each other in the past, an online meeting would really suffice, IMHO.

Perhaps, I did bear a little grudge towards you for not doing the assignment due on Monday when I really really needed your help to confirm whether my answers were correct. Guess you had more confidence in me than I had in myself. And my behavior today was kinda like, "revenge"? I don't know...

Whatever the case, I am truly sorry for being a bitch and I will try to curb my temper (and go for a check-up :p).  
(ok rant over)

I do notice my change of attitude towards the same particular person. And it's for the bad. I realize that I have the tendency to really display the foul side of myself once I feel that I am totally comfortable with someone. And then, they get pushed away by my bad behavior. Or at least this is what happened with my ex. But I really do not wish to lose such an important friend. I have to constantly remind myself that we will be friends for life. I have to constantly remind myself as well that I must not be overly reliant on others (which means, I should do everything myself. Any external help would just be a bonus, which I SHOULD NOT BE EXPECTING!)
My logic: Over reliance => exposing my weakness => vulnerability => I get hurt eventually.
Hence, this is why I repeatedly emphasize to myself that I don't want to depend on anyone. Nothing good happens whenever I start to have expectations for others. I can't even trust my own judgement (as illustrated by my last relationship). At the end of the day, 家是唯一的避风港。

OK DONE WITH THE DOWNS! NOW FOR THE HAPPY THINGS THAT HAPPENED OVER THE WEEK! WHEEEEE~

1. Went to Gladys' place for CNY house visiting last Sat. Pity didn't get to take a photo with the host. But here's a photo of me and Mia at her place when we were watching Running Man. Haha.

2. Dance!
Standard class started on Mon! Missed seeing Why Pong and Michelle! :)) And the layout of their WM DanceWorld studio changed, resulting in a larger dancing area. No more worrying about getting in the way of the pillar. Haha
And I'm loving Samba! Second time taking the elementary Samba at Dance Dynamix and I can catch on much better! :3

3. Shopping with Gladys.
Went (window-)shopping with Gladys on Wednesday before Latin class. Joys of being a girl! <3 br="" nbsp="">

4. Dinner with Yee Teng & Fenny on Thur!
Haven't met the girls for quite some time and setting a dinner with the working "adults" is soooooo difficult. The dinner was supposed to happen before CNY but OTs and CNY delayed it. And both of them were emphasizing how I should enjoy my long break before work starts! :O

5. My new dress arrived! :))
In view of the expenses required for the coming grad trips, I told myself to stop blog-shopping. But, oh wells, things happen! ;) Got this faux leather piece from Dressabelle and loving it loads! So gonna enjoy seeing the expression of all my friends if I'm wearing this out to meet them. Hohohoho.

(I sucked in my tummy while taking this photo. Shhhhh... :p) 

6. Going to Europe!! :)
Booked a tour package to Europe with parents. Flying in late May. Can't wait for it!

7. Cactus 2013: Emotions
Watched the performance to support Mia (oh she's SO HOT!!!).

And saw Paula as well. She's like sooooooo pretty! She should totally abandon her specs and just wear contact lens!

This post is way longer than expected! :3
Tada~~