gearing up for SAT on this sat...hope I won’t fare too badly...
it’s towards the end of November...there is only one mth to the start of a new school year...such a bleak thought....anyway, this means that I have only one mth left to study for that damned econs re-test paper...how fun...hurhurhur...and I have already wasted one mth’s time when I shld have put my heart and soul(blehx...) on my dearest econs notes...on second thought, maybe I shldn’t have appealed to continue taking 4H2...econs is such a bore and burden...and I can’t seem to focus on it...i tried my best to read the notes but my mind just goes blank and refuses to register anything whenever I set my eyes on the econs notes...it is so not my cup of tea...and I think I’ll flunk the re-test just like my mid-yr and the promos...doomed sia...haiz...i know I’m gonna flunk my re-test if I continue to carry this kind of attitude...and I well deserve it if that really happens though how I wish it wouldn’t...and so it is wise to buck up now and really study hard...but this is hard...i’m just not suited to take econs...wat am I gonna do if I am planning to do accountancy in uni?...gosh, i feel so melancholic....
heh..this whole post is so dedicated to dearest Economics...Xp
my heart tells me this...my head tells me that...whichever one should I listen to??

class bbq yesterday...yanru diden go!!!!!!!!!....haiz...the bbq overall was nt bad i guess....abt 18 ppl went...miss ng, mr ho n mrs ting went as well...mrs ting brought her daughter along...bbqed and played till ard 10.30 then went back home...sian...
juz now gt someone came to sell products at my door...the person said he was selling some products from some company that helps create jobs for the needy and ex-convict...well, i would normally turn this asking-for-money kind of ppl away...but he said that he was formerly an ex-convict and he had volunteered to help in this job reation programme...and so i bought a pen from him for $2...i rather admire his courage for admitting that he is an ex-convict and i guess that's what made me bought the pen...and i felt good after buying it... :)...and then mum came say this:if this is so easy, i can also go and cheat ppl out of their money...FCUK!!!...does she have to be so......like, it's my money that's conned(if that's what she think though likely not...)and i spent $2 to feel good also not bad mah....^%$@#&%

最近老呆在家里…闲闲没事做...嗯，也不完全没事做啦…学校里的假期作业一箩筐，我一看到就闷掉…反正闲来没事，我就想了很多事情…想着想着，就觉得自己好幸福哦…嘿…我发现原来身边有很多人关心我…也因为这些人的存在，让我不断地去思考生命的意义还有我自己内心的一些想法…说老实话，朋友是我生命中不可或缺的财产…到目前为止，我都有幸碰到几位能和我坦诚相对的人…因为她们，所以我开心，也已渐渐地忘了孤单的滋味了…有天听着朋友们对我的评价，我惊觉原来自己变了…曾经有人说过：变化是好事…我想我的变化是件好事吧，至少我是这么认为的...可我发现当我渐渐远离以前的我时，却又有一种失落感...于是乎我不自觉地想要挽留一部分过去的我...我想我的内心深处想要保留些什么吧...i guess that sort of explains why I walk like a ghost/zombie...whatever you call that...我会改的，只不过是时间的问题...等哪一天我终于能够释怀了，我会台头挺胸像个正常人那样走路...嘿嘿...Xp

eh... ...
14/11(wed): well, that was a rather scary day i would say...here's what happened: it was just after lunch...dad went to the bathroom n he said that there was a whole bunch of cockraoches in the bathroom...i freaked out...apparently, he gt rid of them by swatting them with slippers...there's 7 of them..all baby cockroaches...erm, the word 'baby' doesn't really suit these things coz it conjours the image of cute little cuddly infants but those things floating in the toilet bowl (that's where they went after being swatted by my dad's slippers)are nowhere near cute, but they are small...i digress...anyway, i was clearing the dishes and washing when i noticed a few more half dead cockraoches appearing out of nowhere...jitters...n i yelled for mum...heh...so in the end, a total of 17 cockroaches went down the toilet bowl...hehe...

15/11(thur): mum have always wanted to go see those museums in singapore...so it is on this day that both of us are free when we decided to go visiting...hehe...our first target was the asian civilisation museum...sounds boring but mum wanted to go and see...so yup, we went there...but in the end the museum relocated to elsewhere due to renovation work...hah...great...so we end up going to fort canning park which was just in the vicinity...and it was so hot...i was practically melting...hurhur... ...

there's gonna be a class bbq outing at ecp next thur...hurhur...didn't really felt like going at first...but then i realised that i didn't go out with whole class since dunno when so, yup i'll be going...hopefully it'll be fun...but then, i can always go home whenever i like...heh...

在一本书上看到这么一个小故事，觉得挺有趣的：

有一个小女孩，每天都从家里步行去上学。
一天早上，天气不太好，云层渐渐变厚。到了下午时分，风吹得更急，不久，天空开始闪电打雷，下起倾盆大雨。
小女孩的妈妈很担心，她担心女儿会被打雷闪电下着，甚至有可能被雷击中。雷声隆隆，雨下得越来越大，闪电像一把把锐利的短剑划破长空。女孩子的妈妈赶紧驾驶着私家车，沿着上学的路线去接心爱的女儿。
忽然，母亲看到自己的小女儿一个人走在大街上。她发现，当天空每次闪电的那一瞬间，女孩都会停下脚步，抬头往天上看，嘴角并且露出微笑。
观察了许久，妈妈终于忍不住叫住她的孩子，问她说：“ 你在做什么啊？”
小女孩天真地说：“上帝刚才帮我照相，所以我要笑啊！”

心的体验：
我们都怕打雷和闪电。因为自小就听大人说“人在做，天在看”，稍有“行差踏错”，老天爷无情的闪电和雷击都有可能针对着你。
我们从小就不敢浪费一点一滴的粮食和财物。听大人说，把白米糟蹋的人，会受到雷公爷爷的谴责。
所以，每一次的雷暴天气，我们都是乖乖地安坐家中，不敢有半点的淘气和顽皮。
如今，见到那位天真的小女孩，竟把闪电视为“上帝在照相”，不禁为她的想象力感到由衷的喜悦。
既然“上帝在照相”，那就希望人类多一些和平，多一些微笑，把最美好的一面展献出来吧。:)

argh...after all those work and with pw finally finished my throat decided to play a trick on me...so pain...T_T...got sore throat n according to my mum: i sounded like a duck...hmph!...quackquack....quackquackquack...Xp...haiz...and now have to concentrate on my econs and try to pass the &%$#&$ econs re-paper at the start of next year...haiz... ....

hmm...
05/11(mon): last op rehearsal...mrs ting came in halfway n all those who haven presented(including my grp) panicked...hehe...but in the end it was rather relaxed n hilarious...then went out for lunch with the usual ppl...ate pasta mania at suntec...then pee hua left after lunch n the rest of us wandered ard...then saw a doll at a toy shop...very cute...the eyes can open n close de...hehe...so they bought it for me as bdae present...thanks!!..:))
06/11(tue): op!...hehe....it was a bit screwed at the start...n i fumbled a bit....but i relaxed after ard midway n e rest is history...then went out with the usauls again minus pee hua(she gt guitar lesson) to bugis...ate lunch...then took neoprint...n ended up with less than $1 in my wallet...hehe...
07/11: last day of PW!!!!

忽然觉得很空虚...有很多话要说却不知如何开口...有种很寂寞的感觉...呵呵...照道理不应该有这种感觉的...毕竟一个人都这么多年了...应该寂寞惯了吧...天啊，觉得自己好像又跌入了一个心情的谷底...信任这东西还真是爱和我玩躲猫猫...咳...

yesterday was fun...pw meeting at 10am...in the end we wasted 1 hr slacking n joking ard...and another 1 hr doing serious work...which is just editing of the ppt slides, coordination of e grp presentation and ans some questions that might be asked during q n a during the op...then after went parkway to eat lunch...supposed to whole grp go one...then jansen say he no money...ulrica wan to eat in skul but skul not much food so she went home instead...then in the end me, yanru, wenbin, junsen, kenneth plus 1 went to eat at pasta mania...after that went home...trying to do I&R now...haiz...sian... ...

@^%$%&^#^#&^%...生气了...

年少狂妄... ...

today's halloween... ...

A dead sleep came over me
And from my horse I fell
O I forbid you, maidens all,
That wear gold in your hair
To come or go by Carterhaugh
For young Tam Lin is there

The steed that my true-love rides on
Is fleeter than the wind;
With silver he is shod before,
With burning gold behind.
And fill your hands o' the holy water
And cast your compass round

She had not picked a rose, a rose,
A rose but barely one
When up and started young Tam Lin
The truth I'll tell thee, Janet;
In no word will I lie

But aye she grips and holds him fast
And pleasure is the fairy land
For those that in it dwell,
But at the end of the seven years
They pay a tax to hell.
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
Into a serpent or a snake;
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
Into a deer so wild,
But hold me fast, don't let me go,
They'll turn me in your arms, lady,
A hot iron at the fire,
But hold me fast, don't let me go,
To be your heart's desire.

Out then spoke her brother dear-
He meant to do her harm-
"There grows a herb in Carterhaugh..."
Had i the wit yestereen, yestereen,
That i had got today
I'd pay my tax seven times to hell
Ere you were won away!

O first let pass the black, lady,
Then let pass the brown,
But quickly run to the milk white steed-
Pull you his rider down
But the night is hallowe'en, Janet,
The morn is Hallowday.

About the dead hour of the night
She heard the bridles ring,
But Janet was as glad of that
As of any earthly being
The night it is good Hallowe'en,
The fairy folks do ride,
And they that would their true-love win
At Miles Cross they must bide.
They shaped him in her arms at last
A mother-naked man.