muahahahaha... my new com's finally here!!!! :D

went to vivo on eve of christmas...original plan was to go sentosa...but it kept raining so watched movie instead... watched austrlia which i think wasn't bad...then ate at peranakan restaurant for dinner..

going ph's hse tml.. :)

i never knew buying a computer was so tedious and confusing...haha...like size of ram and hard disk...type of processor...yada yada... @_@
and i guess my new phone will have to wait till next yr.. :(
i want the nokia 7900 (or is it 7200? can't rmb)...anyway, the keypads are sort of prism-shaped..hehehe
gleefully waiting for my new com and my new hp... :D

sometimes i wonder what marriage is all about...

so i'm back from australia!!! muahahaha :D

oh, nobody mentioned to me that it's full of FLIES over there. those buzzing little six-legged insects that keep zooming about your head. and what's worse, they keep landing on your eyes, nose, mouth etc. urgh!

but to be honest, i love australia's sky. it's just so blue and clear during daytime. and even if there were clouds, they looked like candy floss. yumyum. and oh, the night sky is just so brilliant. you can see so many stars. at least twenty. and i managed to spot one or two constellations. cool huh? hehehe

but the sun in australia is so hot. i've darken by many shades despite applying loads of sunblock. :(

happy birthday to yanru!! :)
18 liao hor, time to be more mature. hehehe. :D

ok, i guess sx, ms, ph and jess are having fun at prom now?
hehehe...and i guess i would be romping ard in gold coast. i think.

phew! finally found a blogskin that doesn't give me any alignment problems.
and it's purple!! :)
ok, maybe not very purple, but it's pretty near purple! :D

one more day and i'm flying off.
but surprisingly (or maybe not), i don't seem to feel much excitement.
consulted the tarot cards last night and if what the cards said is true and if i intepreted the meaning correctly, i guess this trip may not be as fulfilling as i wanted it to be but at least it wouldn't be a dull trip.
yeah, a trip with maybe just a few minor mishaps.
shivers.

bloated. -_-"

now that a's finally over, i thought i got all the time in the world to do whateva i wanted. but now i realised that this is totally not true. (i think i sound like jess. Xp) i've got loads of shopping to do for the trip to australia and it's absolutely tedious. take today for example: had buffet at orchard with pa and ma(which explains my bloatedness now), then shopped in all shops all the way from robinsons to ck tangs and back to takashimaya. and we head for men's belts and women's purse in every shop. in the end i almost puked from the constant strong smell of leather as well as other naustic smells such as perfume(coz women's purse section is mostly located on the same floor as cosmetics) and oil(from stalls selling food along orchard).

last paper was the day before yesterday. but sadly i didn't feel any sense of euphoria like i did after o' levels. i still rmb me and yy walking out of cedar and we were like:“天好蓝，云好白哦!” but now all i feel is just nothingness. it's like: "ok, so a's over. ok, that's it." and that's all.

anyway went for "class outing" after the last paper. we took 36 to marina square and i totally hate the bus trip. it was very packed. i managed to get a seat by the aisle, BUT a totally senseless woman decided to lean against the back of my seat instead of just gripping on to the poles and standing properly. so, i was like staring at her butt (which is just inches away from my head) if i turned my head. and i'll just crash into her butt had the bus swerved and she was still able to keep her butt stuck to the back of my seat. but luckily this did not happen. but still, how would you feel if someone just stick his/her butt next to your face?!

this is why i just totally absolutely utterly HATE crowded bus and mrt coz ppl (not all but most of them) just do not know that such thing called PRIVATE SPACE exist even in crowded places. urgh!! very annoyed!! >:(

okay, back to the "class outint" which was an utter failure coz everyone just split into many groups and did different things. haiz. but went to peehua's hse with yr, sx, ms and jess after the failed class outing. :)

only physics mcq left...muahahahahahahaha... :D

thealmost half of the a's is over...gp is over together with math... :)

but econs is next week... ... ... :(



在昨天的报纸上读到这个故事，挺喜欢的：



潘朵拉盒子

● 二炮


在一个穷山沟一棵槐树下，一名老人在跟一群孩子讲故事，她娓娓道来：

孩子们，我要讲的故事，跟一个盒子有关，这个盒子就像西方童话世界里的潘朵拉魔盒，传说它一旦被打开，灾难和罪恶便从盒里释放出来，一发不可收拾。

话说云南某山沟里住着三对彝族老夫妻，他们各有一个女儿：格玛、阿齐塔和喀嘉娜，三人感情深厚，情同姐妹。清澈的丽江孕育了这三个灵气逼人的姑娘，也赋予她们阿诗玛般的容貌。

每天，红红的太阳从东方升起，三个姑娘便开始一天的劳作。她们挤羊奶，磨稻谷，边干活边唱歌，日子就像苍山白云出岫，悠游而惬意。

姑娘们最爱大理山茶花，万花谷是她们常去的地方。每天午后，花谷里多出三朵山茶，紫色的阿齐塔，鹅黄的格玛，还有粉红的喀嘉娜穿梭在花海中，歌声和笑语回荡在秀丽的山水之间。花季的年龄，爱美的天性，三人用花叶相互打扮，争艳斗丽，羡煞了芍药，羞退了海棠。



这天，她们又在花丛中追逐嬉戏。喀嘉娜先拉开了嗓门：“大理三月好风光……”歌声响彻山谷，格玛接着唱：“蝴蝶泉边好梳妆……”轮到阿齐塔接唱时，她却愣在那儿，两眼直望着江边。



“阿齐塔，阿齐塔，你怎么啦？”格玛连叫两声。

“你们看，江边有一辆牛车。”阿齐塔应道。

“这山沟里很少有外人出现，是谁来了？”格玛说。

“赶车的好像是我们家的九叔，走，咱们看看去。”阿齐塔说。

三人奔去看个究竟，快到江边时，阿齐塔认出赶车人，她大声叫道：“九叔！九叔！”阿齐塔一股劲地跑到九叔面前。

“九叔，您出外好多年了，今天怎么回来啦？”阿齐塔问道。

“九叔来看你们，不欢迎九叔？”九叔脸带笑容说。

“您是我的九叔，我怎么会不欢迎。”阿齐塔说。

这时，机灵的阿齐塔发现牛车上有一大盒子，她好奇的问：“这是什么东西啊？”

“嘿嘿，这是个好东西，九叔特地从外地搬来送你的。”九叔说。

“四四方方的，有什么特别？”

“它可神奇啦，这么说吧，它就像一个魔术盒。”九叔说。

“什么是魔术盒？”阿齐塔问。

美丽的阿齐塔啊，你太单纯啦，如今外面发生了天翻地覆的变化，你不知道啊。”九叔说。

阿齐塔慢慢地伸出手，轻轻触碰那大盒子。

“来，咱们回家，跟你爹娘一起看它有多神奇。九叔带来发电机和魔术盒，这寂静的山沟会热闹起来的。”九叔环顾一下四周说。

天真的阿齐塔坐上牛车，跟格玛和喀嘉娜挥挥手，回家去了。临走时，还不忘跟她们约好明天下午在万花谷见。

格玛和喀嘉娜望着牛车远去。晴朗的万花谷上空，骤然飘来一朵大乌云。

接连三天，阿齐塔没出现在万花谷了。

“喀嘉娜，你说阿齐塔今天会不会来？”格玛问。

“咱们等她吧，她家来了亲戚，也许一时走不开。”喀嘉娜说。

两人傻愣愣地等着阿齐塔，直到金乌西坠。

“太阳快下山了，阿齐塔应该不会来啦，咱们走吧。”格玛说。

话音刚落，就听到阿齐塔的声音，她哼起极不悦耳的调子走向格玛和喀嘉娜。

眼前的阿齐塔，让格玛和喀嘉娜认不出来。不但歌声变了，连头发也变了。乌黑的辫子和整齐的刘海都不见了，蓬松凌乱的头发掩盖了她往日的灵气，判若两人。格玛和喀嘉娜用奇怪的眼光打量着她。

你们不认得我啦？”阿齐塔说。

“你的头发怎么会变成这样？谁弄的？”格玛问。

“你刚才唱什么歌？哪儿学的？”喀嘉娜也问。

“这些都是大盒子教的。”阿齐塔说。

“大盒子？”格玛和喀嘉娜瞪大了双眼说。

“大盒子好神奇，它让我看到外面的世界。原来外面是这个样子的，那里的女人戴耳环、戴项链，手指满是亮晶晶的宝石，太好看了。很多年轻人，男男女女上节目吃喝玩乐，又拿奖品，个个玩得很疯，都很开心！还有男人教我们女人怎么梳妆打扮，里面的女人都很漂亮，我好喜欢。”阿齐塔的语气连珠炮似的，把所知道的一口气都说出来。

“难怪你这么多天没来找我们，原来有了大盒子，好朋友也不要了。”格玛生气的说。

“大盒子是一个人吗？节目是什么东西？”喀嘉娜问。

“大盒子是一面镜子，通过镜子可以看到许多人和景物，还有很多山沟里没有的东西。”阿齐塔形容说。

“对了，对了，九叔说大盒子叫这个电……电……视机。”阿齐塔激动地说。

说了老半天，格玛和喀嘉娜还是没弄明白。

“没关系，明天你们到我这儿来看看大盒子，就知道了。”阿齐塔说。

自从那天起，万花谷没有了她们的踪影。

过了一年，也没有人看到格玛、阿齐塔和喀嘉娜在山沟里出现。有人说她们去外面的世界“学唱歌”，也有人说九叔带她们去认识什么大明星、大导演。至于那个大盒子，被山沟里的人砸碎了。

又过了很多年后，有人看见一名老妇人走进了万花谷，她摘了几朵紫色的山茶花后又走出来，消失在苍山脚下......

故事说完了，讲故事的老人泪流满面，泣不成声。

“阿齐塔。”一名充满灵气的小女孩，不经意的叫出老人的名字。

读着这故事让我想起了一首歌...是JS兄妹在几年前的创作...好像是叫“苏菲亚的愿望”...其实只听过这首歌一次...但非常喜欢它的歌词...可惜找不到歌词了...Xp

昨夜失眠了...嗜睡的我居然也会失眠...好难得的体验哦...呵呵呵
失眠是因为担心考试吗？
还是想到一个月后要坐飞机而兴奋？
还是因为担心体重而潜意识不让我睡觉？
或许都有一些吧 ...哈哈哈
明明很累了却就是睡不着...半夜站在窗前想把睡意引来...却变得越来越清醒...
看着无人的街道旁灯光通明，只有一只猫儿漫无目的的走在街道上。
突然觉得好浪费电哦...猫儿更本就不须要灯光也能走地潇潇洒洒。
奇怪，深更半夜的，猫儿不是因该在睡觉吗？
抬头看天空，没有月亮，没有星星，也没有云朵。
什么都没有的夜空感觉像是个在沉思的中年人，隐藏了许多秘密。
站在窗前只有片刻，却感觉过了很久似的
也第一次真实地感觉到了时间的流逝。


生活像是在旋转木马上，转了一圈又一圈。
转啊转啊转啊转，结果又转回了原点... ...


p.s. 不知为何，就是很喜欢坐飞机。唉，穷小子的命。但每回坐飞机前总会担心一下飞机会否出事。呵呵呵... 我好像有被害妄想症，老是觉得会有什么不测发生在自己身上...问了老妈有否买保险。结果她说：保什么险，命都没了保险还有什么用？ Xp

my email inbox is flooding with mails... :(

my weight is corresponding to an exponential graph... :(

my mind is saturated with too much facts... :(

been reading on the topic of religion for gp...and the phrase "meaning of life" keep popping up...and i start to wonder what do people mean when they say "meaning of life"...and what's the meaning of my life? i'm also pretty amused that those gp essays on religion always seem to pit science against religion and they make it seem as if these two are very contrasting concepts...hmmm...they also say that 'religion is warm and assuring' while science is seen as 'cold' and emphasizes too much on hard facts...hmmm...i don't know...but don't you think facts speak louder? and i've always been fine without any religion...at least that's what i think of myself...Xp

and a random point: chanced upon the phrase "archilles' heels" and that got me thinking...according to legend, when archilles was still a baby, archilles' mum hold him by the ankle and dipped him in a river that's supposed to make him strong and unpenetrable (i think i spelt it wrongly but too lazy to go check dictionary)...so apparently because she was holding his ankle so that's why archilles' heel was unprotected and that became his weakest point...but i was wondering, just wondering, couldn't archilles' mum hold him by the other ankle and dip him in the river for a second time so that he would be fully protected? Xp

being going to school everyday for econs remedial...i guess it's slightly helpful...at least i'm encouraged to write the essays during the remedial...coz there's no way i'm able to lift a pen and write econs essay at home...Xp

last day of official school today...farewell assembly was hilarious...with the funny skit and those male teachers dressing as cheerleaders...lolx
i pride myself on my calmness...
got king's cup ice-cream from the school...yumyum... :)
that i never feel bothered by occassions of farewell...
special ct after the farewell assembly ended...got donut ( i always thought it was spelt this way: doughnut...=X) from miss suhana...
but i'm starting to wonder why do i always feel so detached...
the donut was very nice though i dunno what flavour it was...blehx...
i think i know the answer...
miss ng came as well and the class took loads of pictures...

鸭子：

好像很久都没这么叫你了，

好怀念以前的日子哦。

好像有段日子没和你聊天了吧。

最近还好吗？是否心情沮丧？

你说：世界变得越来越复杂，

你说：孩子们多好啊，开心就笑，难过就哭，

你还说：如果世人都能像孩子般

简简单单不做作该有多好。

但是鸭子，你可曾想过，

在变的不是世界而是我们自己。

世界一直以来都是复杂的，

否则不会有那么多大大小小的战争。

我曾经也有和你一样的想法，

感觉好像911之后世界变得好不太平，

后来我明白了，不是世界真的变得不太平，

而是我跟世界的接触变多了。

孩子们之所以单纯，
是因为他们看得还不够，懂得还不多。
他们一旦踏入社会就会发现，

世界其实有许多他们以前不知道的事。

或许这就是为何

有些人将自己隔绝起来吧。

为了避开世间的种种烦恼。

世界从来都没有简单过。

自我逃避不是办法。

懂得去释怀，

把发生的每件事当作一种难得的体验吧!

(^_^)

gotten back all results except for one of the case study for econs...so far pretty satisfied... :)
better than my ct2 results :))
i guess i am able to pass my econs this time...like finally...unless i totally screw up the case study...

anyway, got our remedial timetable today...still have to go to school everyday coz there's like GP mock paper, maths mock paper, chem mock paper and econs remedial...blehx...sursprisingly there's no phy mock paper...hmmm

prelim's finally over!!! after 2 weeks...

went out with sx, ms, ph and jess on mon after econs paper...hehehe...then dunno why a lot of static electricity between me, ms and jess...acc. to them, i always zap them...then hor, today at parkway buying bread...then i zapped yr agian...hmmm, so does this mean i have a lot of electricity? hohoho...

went to sing song at katong mall with the girls... :)))))
haha...yr and ph very high...so if you plot a graph of their highness against time, you'll see three peaks...the first one is after lian ai-ing...i think...and the second one is during wilber pan's songs...totally crazy...and the third one was towards the end when there was another few wilber pan's songs...lolx

sang for 4 hrs...hehehe...then walked all the way back to parkway with sx coz no direct bus back home from katong...then sx said she suddenly wanna eat ice-cream so we went to parkway and bought two sccops from scoopz...choc chip and cream and cookie...yumyum...so much better than previously when we tried peach and choc(?)...haha...went back home after finishing ice-cream...

tired but happy... :)

actually i always very happy de.. :D

ok lah, not always, but most of the time... Xp

ahhh, 2/3 of prelims is over... :3

was reminiscing the past and looking at the neoprints that i had taken and the notes and postcards that i used to pass between friends...i realised i didn't look too bad with short hair...so was pondering whether i should snip off my hair after the a's...but then i remembered that what's horrendous abt short hair wasn't the short part but rather the phase of trying to grow out of it...and after all i've been keeping long hair for abt 2 and half yrs liao..blehx...shall continue weighing the pros and cons of short hair...

i miss those days when we can just fool ard and we don't have to worry abt our future.
what happened?

to expect the worst...you know, ppl are always saying that you should look at the bright side of things and my mum is just telling me the opposite: to expect the worst...haiz...成事不足，败事有余...终于深刻体会到这句词的意思了...i dun care i want my holiday after the a's... :(

i'm at a loss for words...

am i too quick to flare up?

i don't feel good...

and i have given up hope of changing the blogskin coz no matter what skin i use...the alignments of the words is always giving me much problem...and this has never happen before... :(

gp paper today was ok i guess...the first time i can write longer than my usual crappy 500 words...and my aq was (slightly) more than a page...haha...hopefully my score can reflect my optimism...shall concentrate on the rest of the subjects now...i really hope i can regain the momentum and confidence that i had lost after ct2...the results were such a terrible blow...haiz...

my 16pf report states that:
- i do not communicate my views and feelings;
- i forgot to consult people about decisions;
- i come across as somewhat aggressive;
- i am probably quite difficult to get along with.

well, pretty true i guess...though i don't really see how i'm difficult to get along with...am i difficult to get along with?...anyway, an incidence that happened once and which had caused minor unhappiness in me had happened once again...it just further emphasized to me that the world is made up all sorts of people and that you can't possibly please all of them...but still... ...i know i act like a ghost, i know i walk like a ghost, but THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I AM A GHOST THAT CAN BE TREATED LIKE A GHOST!! i'm sick and tired of thinking of reasons why maybe i'm the one at fault when things happen...from now on i shall just think that it's your problem and that i've tried my best to alter the situation...that's it!

ahhh, so shiok after the ramblings... :D
anyway, jia you and good luck to everyone for the upcoming prelim and the a level~~

just had bak kut teh (is that how you spell it?) for dinner...ahhh, the satisfaction.. :3
prelim starts on mon...gp paper...blehx...i feel so unprepared...blehx.
last day of school today...took random pictures with the girls... :)
have been wanting to change blogskin for ages but dunno what's wrong, the alignment of the words always got problem... :(

『 感激伤害你的人，
因为他磨练了你的意志；
感激绊倒你的人，
因为他强化了你的双腿；
感激欺骗你的人，
因为他增进了你的智慧；
感激藐视你的人，
因为他觉醒了你的自尊；
感激遗弃你的人，
因为他教会了你的独立；
感激关爱你的人，
因为他唤醒了你的内疚；
感激等待你的人，
因为他给予了你的自信。』

东拉西扯~~

1. 老爸的眼镜
老爸原本那副金框眼镜坏了，无奈之下只得赶紧去买一副新的。那天老爸回来，乍看之下还以为是只猫头鹰回来了呢。黑黑粗粗的镜框，嗯，感觉跟平时的老爸有点不同。一回到家，老爸劈头就问：“怎样，新眼镜?” 深知老爸熟性的我当然不会说像只猫头鹰吧，结果冒出一句：“嗯，不错，挺有书生气的。” 后来几天老爸总会便照镜子便问同样的问题，而我也给予同样的答案。再后来，老爸忽然问我：“这新眼镜会不会让我显得有点老啊?” 我不禁暗笑，哈，老爸竟那么怕老。我便敷衍了几句：“不会不会，看上去挺英俊的，一点也不会老。” 老爸后来便再没问我眼镜的问题了。
老妈后来悄悄告诉我：其实新眼镜让他显得非常的书呆子气。嘿嘿。

2. 奥运会开幕仪式
左盼右盼, 横盼竖盼, 日日夜夜期盼的奥运会终于来了。坐在电视机前看开幕仪式，期盼着张艺谋能如报章上所夸的能带来些许惊喜。结果三个半小时的仪式，后面两个小时的运动员进场反而比张导花了数月呕心沥血搞出的文艺表演还要精彩。不知人家张导听了会否吐血，呵呵呵。如此沉闷的演出，差点没让我睡着。咳，不过都说是文艺表演，也就是张大导演所在行的，适合文人看的文邹邹的表演。咱这些凡人不懂。

3. 我家附近的交响乐
最近我家附近有只猫，不知是在发春还是被人虐待，老是在“瞄呜瞄呜”乱叫；
我家对面的楼上老是有几只乌鸦，白天的时候，每隔几分钟就“啊啊啊”得叫几声；
我家的组屋区在翻新，所以一直有恼人的敲墙声、转洞声...
啊，当这些声音一起响起时，多美妙的音乐啊~~ T_T

昨天是七月鬼节的第一天，一踏出家门便迎来浓浓烟熏味，一走出电梯门就看到满地的冥纸和一个正冒着烟的大桶...心中便起了一股无名火...真不明白如此污染环境和危害性命的“习俗”居然还在盛行着... ...



watched 'an inconvenient truth' for gp...it's a docunmentary on environmental issues by mr al gore which i think was pretty good...and made me more aware (and guilty) of my 'contributions' to global warming...heh...the rest of the day was rather boring...oh, and there was econs remedial....SIAN!!! just the thought of it... and to make things worse, there's only me and 5 other guys from my class whom i rather detest...blehx...



回家的路上走在一对小情侣后面...勾肩搭背，如胶似漆的...呵呵...本来嘛这也没什么，可是看着他们走路的样子实在让人发笑...就好像两根站不稳的柱子，非得紧贴在一起才能向前走...呵呵呵呵...Xp

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

kena tagged by both ale and ms so i have to do right? :)

1. What are your reasons for having a blog?
dunno...it started coz a friend wanted me to get one so that she can read...so she got my an a/c and i've been blogging since then

2. What do you do before bedtime?
read books, newspaper, listen to songs etc. and brush teeth and comb hair...lolx

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
eh...dunno...never thought abt it...maybe somewhere with a romantic touch and loads of purple deco...

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
erm...somewhere in europe(?)

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
introvert...but learning to be an extrovert

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved

7. Do you trust easily?
no. the world is full of fakeness and hypocrites, you know. so you have to be on guard. though it's exceptional to friends...and that's why all the more it hurts when you get betrayed by ppl you thought were friends.

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
mum, though she sets a really high standard for me to achieve.. >.<

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
erm...dun think so...i'm a happy kid.. :) and anyway i don't let anything affect my mood too easily

10. When's the last time you had fun?
eh...forgot...serious...i got short term memory... ...

11. Is being tagged fun?
eh...not say fun but also not not fun...

12. How do you see life?
an experiment :D

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
mum and ... ...

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
ale: fun-loving, a trustworthy friend
ming shuan: GAY...haha...and caring, responsible...aiyah, i just wrote testimonial for you to give ms suhana...same points lah...

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
depends on if i can find the right guy to marry...

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
2, one boy one girl...though i wouldn't mind both being girls but definitely not two boys...

17. What's better, to give or to receive?
both are equally nice...

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
erm...unlikely to happen sia...but i think i'll choose the one who cares for me...

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
-_-" ... erm, i'll be anti-life in this case...unless i'm planning to marry the guy...

20. What are you waiting for right now?
for a's to be over and for the trip to australia after that... xD


tagged: yanru, sixuan, peehua,cher.......that's all i guess

talk by nus business school in pt in the morning... :)...and i think it was pretty useful...confirming my choice of nus....then loads of chem today as usual...and my stomach growled during lecture until yanru can hear...hehe...then there was careers and scholarship fair...a lot of freebies...haha...got a box of cute colourful clips which me and ming shuan took two each...muahaha...then there was an umbrella...hehe...the police force was giving out water bottles and si xuan and yanru wanted one...so i was like go ask some qn and keep looking at the water bottles...then they'll give after answering ur qn...lolx...then in the end i asked some retarded qn about catching thieves(?)...couldn't rmb...but got the bottles anyway...heh...went to listen to the talk by kpmg...i think it was quite useful too... :D...then went for some social service talk and i decided that that's definitely not my cup of tea...went home loaded... Xp

把头发削薄后，觉得好轻松哦! 怪不得古人总把头发比喻成烦恼，头上这三万缕烦恼丝剪掉四分之一后，感觉好像烦恼也减少了许多... (:

and darn my com, darn my internet connection, darn GP...

it take ages for one page to load.................................dead.

gp presentation...4 (overdue) econs essay outline...chem tutorial...life is so... ... ...

窗外的夜空依稀看得到星星三两颗，可是月亮躲哪儿了呢?

明明有很多话却什么也不想说...

我不流泪，不代表我不伤心；
我在微笑，也不代表我开心。
这就是我吧，一直不愿把自己真正的想法与感受表现出来...然而矛盾的很：虽然不希望别人看透我的心思，却希望别人能理解我...但当有人很直接地就拆穿我时，我又会有点小小的恐惧感...人类是一种极为矛盾的高级动物...

不喜欢虚伪的人（班里就有一两位）...但自己也真实不到哪里去...明明很想把对方咒到十八层地狱去，却一笑了之，强忍着心里的怒火...以前的我较冲动易发火，可后来发现完完全全地表现出自己的不悦并不能解决问题，有时甚至还把事情弄得更糟...所以学会了收敛自己的脾气...友人问：为何人可以如此的虚伪...我想在如今的社会上，虚伪已成了一种生存之道了...感觉好像在为自己的虚伪狡辩...Xp

咳，人生啊...真苦闷~~~

-_-"

考试的日子终于熬过来了...除了数学有信心拿a之外，其他的科目我已不抱任何希望了...物理和化学我如果可以拿到b就应该谢天谢地了...至于econs 和 gp 则是抱着坐以待毙的态度了...haiz...

我的组屋区最近在翻新，所以每天一大清早就听到又是打墙又是转洞的声音，吵得让人心神不宁...过了6点后好不容易有些片刻的宁静...现在对面一幢楼死了个人，来了一群和尚一直不停不停地念经...天啊!!!这日子还要怎么过啊?!

有一种死到临头的感觉... ... ... ...

读书读太多的后遗症：给一位朋友留言时，竟用了对方的名字署名...咳，真丢脸...呵呵呵...
虽说每天花了不少时间面对那一页又一页的资料，但真正进到脑里的却少之又少。而且现在一看到那一叠叠的纸就脑子一片空白。真想把它们撕烂了再潇洒地往天上抛去，或是放一把火给全烧掉。嘿嘿嘿， 爽哟!! 不过我不会冲动到真这么做，我的未来就靠这些纸张了（嗯，好像有点夸张）。但是真的很难定下心来读书...
妈呀，不到一个礼拜就要开学考试了，怎么办啊!!!

后悔。从来都不允许自己对任何一件事后悔，因为我知道，后悔也没有用，只会使自己更难受。
不过有时难免会想，如果当初我没有做这个决定，而是选择了一些现在在我看来可能会更适合我的道路，我的生活会是怎样的？想着想着就会感到小小的遗憾，遗憾而已哦，不是后悔。:)
会想说，如果我有分身术就好了。这样我就可以同时做两个不同的选择，过两种不同的生活。可后来又想想，这样好像有点太乱了吧。呵呵。
但是我知道，即使时间倒流，我依然会做同样的选择。
最近和朋友聊了好久（其实也不过一个小时），发现自己好像还是没能适应这个人多到快要爆炸的世界。有些人是我很希望留在我生活中的一部分，但是很遗憾，我没能做到。有时候真的得主动一点，才不会遗憾。
讲了这么多废话，我真的没有后悔过吗？

我也不知道了。

胡思乱想 | 胡言乱语

哦，假期的3/4已经过了...

“生活就得放手一搏”...我不知道我是否做得到...

突然觉得我（们）活得会不会太悲哀了...

虽然不能互相理解，但至少做到互相包容吧...

其实都是跟我无关的事，我何必那么在乎呢...

咳，人生啊~~~

整个假期就这样恍恍惚惚地度过一半了...咳，不知为何一点都提不起精神来...也不能说是不开心还是什么的...就觉得有点郁闷...不过当你有个考试在假期后等着你，加上脸上那没完没了的‘痘痘’，还有那直线上升的体重...实在是很难打起精神...
咳，青春的烦恼啊~~~

等一个答案，等一个回复，
等一个结果，等一个未来。
等到花儿也谢了，头发也白了，
我依然不知道自己到底在等些什么。

假期，是让我能够远离人群的时间，让我充电恢复元气。
所以假期的时候总是让我有点不想合群... Xp

以前很羡慕常做梦的人...现在已不再向往梦境的来临...

好闷的假期啊...

仍然在做着莫名奇妙的梦... ...

我越来越怀疑我前辈子可能是某个隐居在深山老林的顽固老头...
拜六的harmoc concert不赖，有好几首我爱听的曲子... :D

i don't know what to say,
i don't know what to do,
i don't know........................

以为我不在乎，以为我会忘记，以为我能释怀，但是... ...

最近又在做些胡乱的梦了...
梦到在一个没有出口的商场里被人追赶, 然后总会跑进位于角落的麦当劳或寿司饭店, 其他商店则全没在营业...
还梦到在遥远的未来，人们开始兴起一股领养机器小孩的潮流, 结果我（其实在梦里感觉不是我而是似乎我的灵魂附在某个女人的身上）也领养了一个带回家，结果发现领养回来的机器小孩阴森森的有股邪气，而且会随时掏出一把抢乱射...
也梦到一整班人在一个破屋里打羽毛球，明明没有风，却有一股看不见的力在控制着羽毛球的方向...
我好像一直在做这种奇奇怪怪的梦...而每次做了梦后，第二天醒来总会觉得很疲惫...不知是否是巧合, 每次做梦前后都会有不愉快的事发生...

watching harmoc concert tml...this is after yanru asked and persuaded for dunno how many times before i finally relented and agreed to go...then for the past week she's being asking me everyday whether i'm excited abt it...then i realised i'm totally void of any emotions with regards to going to the concert...it's not that i'm dreading it but neither am i all enthu and fluffed up abt it...it's just... nothingness...and upon deeper thinking i realise i dun care abt many things much either...i just feel so emotionless.........

心情好疲惫、好烦，好想找个人倾吐一番，却发现自己也不清楚自己到底在烦些什么... ...
以为可以看得很透彻，却发现我还是会很在意某些人事物... ...
我不明白为何人可以这么自私（还亏我是那类信奉“人不为己，天诛地灭”的人）...虽说彼此不是怎样很熟的朋友，但好歹也该为别人着想一下吧...至少也不该随意践踏别人的感情... ...
以前会为别人的过失找借口， 会试着别那么在意...但最近好像越来越难保持那种平常心了...甚至会气自己为何会如此在意某些在我看来没必要在意的事（或者说，那些不关我的事）...所以只能封闭自己，回到自己的世界找回我原有的平静... ...
有时候很想一个人静一静，沉淀一下心中的烦躁不安...但周围却有那么多扰人的噪音轰炸着我的双耳...我明白不是所有的人都了解我，但我渐渐发现或许世界上本来就不会有很多了解你的人... ...
不过至少身边的人包容着我和我的古怪...



难道宁静那么难找吗？

haven blog for quite some time...a lot of things happened/happening/going to happen this week...
there was bball match against nyjc on mon...most of the class pon chem lecture to go support...so chem tutorial was cancelled and pushed to the next day...
pe on tue was slack...played vball...it was quite fun... :)
wed ponned chem lecture and went to watch bball match against rjc...it was quite an exciting match...and we beat rjc 35-42....i think...diden go for soccer
thur was super duper slack...phy lecture watched some video coz lecturer diden come den maths lecture...then that's it! end of the day! gp was cancelled but we weren't informed by however's supposed to tell us...so there were slight(or is it a lot?) unhappiness...then went toa payoh to watch vball finals against hci...genna trashed 3-0..hur...
this week seem to be a slack week...or at least it seem ed so to me...yet i feel more tired..there were many frayed nerves...........

hse meeting first thing in the morning...hse comm nominee speeches...some was very funny and hilarious..had a good laugh...went to watch basketball match with the class after school...get to miss 1 period of econs...heh...vj playing against aj...it was quite an exciting match but sadly we lost...45-49... :( ...but oh wellz, the bballers still did their best i guess...and they were rather down after the match...

我不知道原来可以这样的哦...

celebrated may babies' birthdays today...si xuan, kenneth, wen bin, xing zhong and willy...cake was bought by huan jek from secret recipe...coffee flavour!! :D...it was quite nice...then peehua threw a piece of cake onto kenneth's face and junsen huanjek and kenneth began smearing each other with cake...then ph threw cake at wen bin and genna thrown back by him...so half of her hair got cake...it was quite fun watching them "fooling" ard...heh...Xp

the days are getting hotter and hotter...and i was commenting to yanru abt what's the human boiling/melting point...hurhur...can you imagine if you are walking on the road then people ard you start to turn into jelly-like state or start evaporating...amazing...but yanru say that's unlikely...new lecturer for econs...he's funny and lame at times...but 90% of the time i dun get what he's saying...coz he doesn't go acc. to the lecture notes but just rambles off...blehx...organic nitrogen compounds finally over...but i dun understand the protein part...how??...haiz...chem review test on wed...

an eventful week:

tue(29/04) : late for school by 1min...damn mad with the a****** teacher...nag so much...but maybe it's a blessing in disguise(?) coz i feel all perked up and energized for 2.4 after that...managed to get D...missed C by 20sec...cnnt get gold...but at least i passed everything... :D
wed(30/04) : yr,ms and ph pon school...students council investiture in the morning...booooring...then chem tutorial, econs lecture(good thing the aircon in LT1 was fixed) and maths tutorial...sports day after that...went out to parkway with sx, jess and jx for lunched...the security card detained our ezlink/ic coz they afraid ppl will pon...watched sports day for a few min then played bridge...the security guards locked the gate after sports day started to prevent ppl from goingoff halfway...then when it was ard 6pm there were so many ppl standing behind the gate waiting for it to open...chionged out after the security guards finally open the gate...heh...xD...
thur(01/05): labour day! holiday! ~~
fri(02/05): gave sx her bdae present! :D...forgot to bring maths notes for lecture(as usual...>.<)...jess almost lost her wallet again...haiz...but it's a good thing it was found eventually...and to quote her words: "( i'm so happy!)^100" :)

today's a very very hot day...and of all days it had to be today that the LT1 aircon broke down AGAIN!!! and it's for econs lecture...i thought i was gonna evaporate...haiz...and for chem lecture today we learnt abt organic nitrogen compounds...the lecturer was talking abt proteins and its hydrolysis...then she said that our hair is an example of protein and in some places the hair from the barber were collected then hydrolysed into the amino acids then ppl use these to make MSG and other stuff.... yeeeew!!...>.< ...
napfa 2.4km tml...

每天都要听到这些话, 不管你问多少次我都是这个答复, 你没听腻我都回答腻了。怎样, 不爽吗? 我就是这样的人, 你能拿我怎样?! 说我自私也好，说我不关心人也好, 这就是我。怎样?! 怎样?! 可是你还是一直问, 烦死人了, 你懂吗?我再重复一边: 很烦!!!
这世界好吵哦! 好想一个人静一静...

did napfa 5 items yesterday...i guess the results are pretty satisfactory...though i only manage to get one A for sit-ups... >.< ...so hopefully i can run well next week... :)
did the chem e-assessment for so many times and it's always 13/15...*^%$&%^!*#...feel like murdering the com(though it's not the com's fault)...but finally got full marks after wasting 1 hr...haiz...

i almost died of hunger during econs tutorial today...and according to ming shuan, i was very whiny and talkative when i'm hungry... >.< ...

happy b'dae jess, hope you like the present from us... :D

drew tweety bird during econs tutorial today...and pee hua and ming shuan said ot was nice... xD...
music fest tml and everyone besides me seems to be going...but who cares abt music fest right?... i just want my solitude... Xp

My Random Weird Thoughts xD

My Random Weird Thoughts

Thought #1:

Walked past the koi pond in school the other day and saw a fish that's totally not moving at the bottom of the pond. The first thought that flashed across my mind was: oh,there's a dead fish in the pond. After telling the rest and after a few moments, logic came back to me and i suddenly remember that dead fish are supposed to be upside down floating on the water..so yup, that was just a sleeping fish and not a dead fish in the pond...



Thought #2:

It was raining cats and dogs yesterday and there were lightnings and thunder. I was doing hw in my room with the window open and out of the corner of my eyes i saw a lightning right outside my window and my whole room literally just lit up. For a second i thought i was gonna get strike by lightning and DIE! hurhur...Then i realise that there's a lightning rod on the flat and the chances of me being strike by lighting while in a room is close to zero...



Thought #3:

I couldn't fall asleep last night and i just rolled on my bed from left to right then from right back to left.(fancy i didn't roll off my bed...lolx...) Then i suddenly thought of all those stories of ghost sightings back in cedar and i had the sudden notion that someday i shall go back to cedar at night and wander around.



Thought #4:

I have always been rather curious about the Bermuda Triangles, the area that's notorious for mysterious disappearance of ships and people that passes through there. Rumour has it that thre's a black hole in that area that sucks in everything,including light. I wonder how it feels to be in the black hole. Someday i shall go there, but i think i'll wait for the day when i'm gonna die.



Thought #5:

The Egyptian pyramids is another thing that bugs me. As you all know, the pyramids are built for the burial of Egyptian kings and hence there are sources suggesting that the pyramids are cursed to protect the kings and prevent others from intruding them. I've read somewhere that there was once this guy who tried to climb one of the pyramids and he ended up falling off and died. But what's amazing was: after further investigation, it was found that the guy died before he fell off and that means somehow he died on his way climbing the pyramid. Cool huh? So one day maybe i can try it too and see what happens.



Thought #6:

Then i realised that since the chanceof me disappearing/dying in the Bermudas Triangle and the pyramids are equally high, i don't know which should i go first?


all crap...lolx...

next week got napfa test..aaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!
5 periods of chem today...how wonderful..and i forgot to bring econs notes for lecture AGAIN!...haiz....

got back PW results last fri...i have to say it's a pleaasant surprise for me... :)
to those who couldn't get what they wanted: to be too sad over it...concentrate on the coming A's...xD
woke up today with half a nose blocked and the other half flowing like siao...then during the later part of the day i think my half blocked nose is interrupting the air flow to my brain coz i started to feel a slight headache and my reaction a bit slow...then went back home right after lessons...and darn all those shrieking giggling schoolgirls and howling guffawing schoolboys who acted like monkeys on the bus!!!...my headache worsened and so did my temper....just feel like chopping all their hands and feets and head off...then there will be silence...hurhurhur...*evil grin*...

a crappy day today...played some brigde-like game during ct sessions which was totally pointless...the teacher juz want to bring across some message which i think nobody got...Xp...then chem practical ...rate rxn expt again and everything was done in panic...it was quite fun but i had no idea wat i did...i juz knew i was adding chemical X to chemical Y...then adding mixture of chemical X and Y to chemical Z and so on and so forth...
then econs lecture turned into a story sharing session with jess... :D...the lecturer was damn boring and somehow we ended up telling each other our exciting and interesting life stories...hurhur...and acc. to jess, i still owe her 0.5 of a story..and i'm supposed to think of one to tell her tml...but i can't think of anymore nice stories leh...nvm,i can always crap up one and naive jess will believe it is my own personal story...muahahahahaha...xD..
well anyway, there's gp presentation tml but i dun think many ppl will do it...so that means,mrs ting will fly into a tantrum again...hurhur...

for a friend:

20岁时，我们顾虑别人对我们的想法；
40岁时，我们不理会别人对我们的想法；
60岁时，我们发现别人根本就没有想到我们。

pe today was not bad i guess...tennis again and i think i'm getting better at it...xD...paired up with ming shuan...then during phy lecture sixuan got bored so she started drawing on my hand..she drew a face and a cat..then i drew on her hand a fish which according to her doesn't look like a fish...Xp...then i tried drawing lotus leaf and a pond...:)...yeah,but we went ard asking ppl whose drawing was nicer then they all say sx's nicer... :(...

不知是否是因为那个要来了，最近几天心情起伏很大...早上去学校的时候总会不爽...每天要和几十个人挤在巴士上，有时还要担心因挤不上而迟到...因而浪费了不少德士费...Xp...安全准时到达学校后才会感觉好些...前几节课会觉得还好，到了要下课时心情直线下降...但也不知道为什么...

友人问我：「当你难过或不开心时，会否表现出来，还是会把感情藏在心中。」
我说：「如果有其他人在身边，尤其是朋友的话，我选择后者。」
「这样不是在欺骗自己？」
「不是，这只是我和别人的相处方式。我不希望我的不快乐会影响到别人。」

31/03(mon): jess and peehua finally came back...yayee!!!...(: went mp library again and studied with si xuan, jess and peehua...but before that,went to eat cup noodles again!!! xD
01/04(tue): april fools'day...the whole skul's full of crap and joke...-_-" pe was fun...played tennis but got a few times when i hit the ball but got totally no idea where it flew to...Xp...then there was once thte whole racquet flew out of my hand...heh...
today: did some initial rate rxn expt for chem prac...forgot to bring econs notes for the umpteenth time...Xp...so crapped alot with jess during econs lecture...hurhur...then after lesson attended some psc schorlarship talk...

27/03(thur) : a very very slack day...lessons supposed to end at 1.20...but mrs ting still in spain and miss suhana didn't come to skul...so ur lessons ended at 10.25...but then we are not supposed to leave skul until 12.30...how stupid...so in the end the 'class' went thaipan to eat...we thought of climbing over the gate...lolx...but in the end the van from thaipan came and fetch us and the whole process of trying to smuggle out of school was quite interesting...hurhur...but only like 10 ppl went...
today: also quite slack...hse meeting before lessons...the hse com niminees quite high and lame...went to sixuan's hse with yanru after lesson and stayed for abt 45min...looked at a lot of her photos...hehe...then talked abt dressing...

若无其事 夕阳在你背后一条路
转头想去的山谷 全因为你起了雾
若无其事 划破了伤口血流如注
我没关系你清楚 你自以为你很清楚

结冰的是语气的温度 不是你爱的那一片湖
为何这关系变的越模糊 才能够相处
停止这比闷的冲突 话全都吐出
别不敢承认 爱用完了你只能应付
停止这比闷的冲突
还若无其事的假装毫不在乎
请放我一个人哭


若无其事 紧紧的拥抱还是辛苦
其实我们都清楚 谁也别想把谁征服
若无其事夕阳在你背后一条路
全因为你起了雾 起了雾

--若无其事/同恩

心在颤抖，心变麻木，心也醉了。
能否给我呼吸的空间？
能否允许我大声呐喊？
能否让我随心所欲？
能否让我去地狱溜达一下？

mon(24/03): got back gp result...i miraculously passed and what's more i got a D!!!! xD....my highest for gp so far...hehe...so that means i passed all my common test papers....yayee!!...then um, after lesson went to mpcc library with si xuan to study...but before that we went to 7-eleven to eat CUP NOODLE!!! muahahah...on the way there si xuan was asking me what's my favourite flavour...i thought she was asking me abt sweets..so i blurted out: mint! coke! lemon! lime!....then si xuan said: er, instant noodles?!...=.=...hurhur...finished DE tutorial in the library... :)
today: talk at PT first thing in the morning...a talk abt STI and HIV...the speaker was rather funny...but some of the pictures shown were quite revolting... ...


20岁时，我们顾虑别人对我们的想法；
40岁时，我们不理会别人对我们的想法；
60岁时，我们发现别人根本就没有想到我们。

yesterday was full day...did i mention it?...well anyway, life's boring...Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...and jess flies to new york today for her competition...good luck! (:

19/03(wed): feeling fab and arts day in skul...learnt salsa for feeling fab..it was quite fun... :) then for arts day got some dumb man come and perform...then played cards on the tree hse with si xuan, ming shuan, jess and jing xuan...then walked ard...bought turkish ice-cream with sixuan...genna tricked buy the ice-cream man...hurhur...then ming shuan got a balloon...got back econs paper..and i pass!!!! woohooo...peehua flew off to spain liao...jia you!..
today: there supposed to be jts at seoul garden...but i dun feel like going...

15/03(sat): went to suntec for a Australian education showcase and a food & beverage exhibition...i thought there would be some freebies such as notepad or pens at the showcase but no there wasn’t anything... :(...but I guess the whole thing was quite informational...though I dun think I’ll be going to Australia for uni...then at the food exhibition I also thought there’s gonna be lots of food sample to try then in the end also dun have anything much... :(
16/03(sun): class outing...it was quite a disaster...13 ppl went and we went to the kallang leisure park...peehua wanted to ice-skate but quite a lot ppl diden want to...so we decided to go bowling...but the waiting list was very long... so we settled for movie: rule number one...but when we wan to go buy the tickets the show’s already started and the next slot is more than an hour later...so in the end we went to eat sushi...=.=...then went to junsen’s hse to play wii...watched junsen and huanjek played boxing...damn funny...then got tennis....and some surgery game whereby you have to cut up the patient and cure wounds in his internal organs such as liver and intestines amd then have to stitch him back within a time limit...

the weather’s so hot...I feel so tired and drowsy...my head feels so heavy and i can’t think properly...i dun feel like moving at all...not even moving my fingers to type these few words...i just feel like lying on my bed and go to sleep...just gotten back maths and chem common test paper...both were within expectation...
haiz...i didn’t noe typing is so taxing until today...Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

ate at seoul garden yesterday with pa and ma...then went to loads of travel agencies to ask abt travels to australia...class outing on sun...ice-skating...hurhur...hope it'll be fun...

发现自己越来越爱冷笑...以前很讨厌一直冷笑的人...总觉得只有愤世嫉俗的人才会那样...哦，还有那些瞧不起别人的人也是经常在冷笑的...结果现在的我几乎每一天都会冷笑一次...哼哼... ...

假期了...又可以睡懒觉了...我想这是假期最好的地方吧...xD

不知从何时起，面对不熟的人，每次在说某句话或做某件事之前，总会犹豫片刻...想着这么说/做是否妥当，会否伤人，可否有更好的说/做法...也会想对方说某句话或做某件事是否有任何用意...久而久之，这种心态成了一种习惯...可是最近却开始觉得好累哦...好想就这样抛开我为自己带上的面具...想说啥就说啥，想做啥就做啥...也不用去在乎别人的反应...可是好难哦...

Yesterday (thur): last paper of common test-- mathematics...i guess it’s do-able, though there was one or two more challenging qns...and there was quite a few qns on integration...after the test, we (jess, si xuan, peehua and me, excluding yanru COZ SHE’S MEETING UP WITH HER (other)FRENZ...hmph...)unanimously agreed to go to ming shuan’s hse much to her surprise (or rather shock...hehe)...so went to parkway to eat lunch...then si xuan bought ice-cream and she shared with me...xD...peach and chocolate chip flavors which, according to everyone, was a weird mix...then proceeded to ming shuan’s hse but si xuan didn’t go in the end coz she still got training afterwards so it was a bit of a rush for her...reached mingshuan’s hse...very big and nice and noticeable...coz got four big yellow pineapples hanging outside her hse...lolx...ph and jess helped ms tuned her guitar then jess and ms played piano while ph played along on the guitar...whereas me, i fought a brave and courageous battle against the rubic’s cube with the help of jess but in the end, I surrendered and lost...=.=...then played bridge for awhile then went home...ate dinner with mum...wanted to watch tv after dinner but mum ask if wan go library...so went bedok library and borrowed some books...=)...

Today: release of A’ level results...there were rumours of having a half day but the principal dashed the hopes of many by declaring that lessons will end at 12.45pm...pooh!...watched a video on propaganda on politicians by the media in America during gp...couldn’t understand a thing at first but started to enjoy it after a few minutes...then maths lecture: statistics...Zzzzz...(84土1) ppl attended the lecture when the official turnout shld be ard 180...when lesson ended many were rather excited and wanted to stay back and see the release of A’ level results...i wanted to go home...very hungry...well honestly, and I have no intention of any ill meanings, I don’t understand what’s all the hype about the release of A’ level results when it’s none of your concern...ok, this sounds a tad unfriendly but it is strictly my personal opinion and I have not an ounce of intention for any personal attacks...but still, I mean, if the results were good, that’s the credit of the previous batch(though I would still gladly accept any full day the school decides to endow upon us due to this...Xp)...and if the results weren’t so good, it’s still the fault of the previous batch!...which is why I think the release of the A’ level results is none of my business, so why should I care?!...yanru attributed my non-concern to the lack of seniors...or rather, the lack of close seniors...well, maybe...and mum always says that my greatest weakness is my lack of concern for those around me...hmmmm...shall check upon myself...

明天吃火锅! (^_^)

昨天考 gp 和 econs... gp 作文胡乱写了一通... econs 则是一点也不知道要写些啥... :(...今天考物理...嗯，不算太难吧但也不简单...明天考数学...最后一门课喽... :D...
最近老下雨...天气冷嗖嗖的...偏偏考试时冷气都是开着的...冷啊!...
最近又开始在做奇奇怪怪的梦了... ...

common test have officially started today...chem paper was the first...a bit not enough time and towards the end i wanna no toilet very urgent so i chiong like siao then my handwriting very ugly...>.<...but overall i guess it was ok...tml will be gp and econs...hehe...shall just die...
well,good luck to everyone! :D

today is a happy day!!! :)

no more SPA after yesterday's chem spa...muahahahahahahaha...*choke* *cough*...hahahahahahahahahah...-_-"....hehestarted the day with some stress management talk....i thought it was going to be another boring talk where you can catch some sleep...but the speaker was quite good...very interesting and she showed us some very funny videos...so yup, rather enjoyed it...3 periods of chem tutorials today...first 2 periods did chemical kinetics...then the last period did some mcq on organic...quite interesting coz everyone got a remote control thingy and you can just press your ans... :)

天很蓝，云很白，心情也很好! xD

我的未来？

前些日子老师要我们写下对未来的期望...比如说：要做什么行业，想过怎样的日子等等等等...以前的我对未来可以说是懵然不知，毫无头绪...但后来有一天却突然开窍了...对于未来突然变得很清醒...完全知道自己要的是什么，并且要怎样做来达到目标...我想这是好事吧...有个朋友看我对未来如此的清楚，说她很羡慕我...是的，我可以理解...在我对未来还毫无头绪的日子里，我也曾有过很清楚自己将来要做什么的朋友...而对于那些人我也一样用羡慕的眼神看着她们...只是最近开始怀疑起自己...我为自己想好的未来是否真的适合自己...为自己设想好的路我是否有能力走过去...以前对未来感到恐惧，因为看不到未来...现在即使看到了却还是一样感到恐惧，因为怕自己看错...
总觉得未来谁也说不准...也觉得对未来的设想是每个人的小小秘密...因此也不喜欢对人说出自己将来的计划...尤其不喜欢让老师们知道...感觉好像说出来了未来就这样被定下来了...就没有可以改变的余地了...

i want to watch 'L-change the world'....but i guess i'll have to wait till after common tests...haiz...last phy SPA today...i guess i did ok...last chem SPA tml...hope it'll be fime too! xD

*^$&%#^$&%*#...COM DAMN SLOW AHHHH!!!!! hence i took like 35min to do the e-assessment...half the time is wasted waiting for the com to load...then my score was 7/15... :(...so doing it again..argh!...irritated... ...

昨晚的月亮很亮。
不知今晚的月亮如何,天上上有许多云，看不清... ...

yesterday pe gt mock napfa...i fell...lolx...well, this is what happened: we only need do 3 stations for the mock: standing braod jump, inclined pull-up and 2.4km run...then i wore the shoe with absolutely no friction at all...then when i was doing the standing braod jump..i dunno how but somehow i just slipped and fell on my knees...so skin on both my knee was a bit scrapped off...but i passed the mock anyway so i guess that's ok...though i just managed to finish the run on the dot...then after i went home i realise that the wound wasn't exactly very light and the mat i fell on wasn't very clean...correction: was very dirty...so i asked my mum put some antiseptic but it was very pain... so i was jumping abt the hse all the while mum tried to put medicine...then i bandaged the wound and today went to school ppl were like...O.O...what happen to ur knee?...
econs lecture today was...dunno how to say...the LT aircon hasn't been on since 2wks ago so it's damn stuffy in the LT...plus it's econs lecture...so 1/4 of the ppl pon...another 1/4 slept..then another 1/4 stoned...throughout the whole lecture mingshuan miraculously survived!!...si xuan and peehua wandered into dreamland while me and jess spent the time decorating yanru's notes...(yanru is at the cca walkabt for O2)...hehe...then got some briefing on schorlarships after school..
darn!...tml gt additional econs lesson after school...argh!!!

gosh...com very slow ahhh!!....and i noe i very long neva post le...then so many ppl ask me update...hehe....and got some ppl like yanru keep going see my blog until she memorized my previous post...'the day started with phy spa yada yada'...
so, here shall be a long and boring review on the past week(but if y'all not interested you can dun bother to read it.... it's all crap anyway...heh) :
14/02(thur): valentine's day! gave flowers to cher and phoeb thru the online thingy...phoeb say she ordered a flower for me too...but sadly i diden receive it...guess it got lost...:(...wellz,received presents from the girls...thanx!!...(^_^)
15/02(fri): x-ctry day...a lot of ppl pon...but si xuan came to accompany me...xD...so nice of her...then in the end si xuan pulled me thru the whole thing when i couldn't take it and juz wanna walk back...so my position was 450...improved compared to last yr...but acc. to si xuan if i diden walk on the bridge i could have gotton like 280 to 300...O.o...
17/02(sun): ask mum to help me layer hair coz i wanna save $10...hehe...but the end result wasn't very satisfactory...as in if i dun tie my hair it look ok...but once i tie then my hair look like a stump of something...yup...considering go layer it again but i wan save $$...going broke now...T_T
18/02(mon): additional maths lesson by mr ho after school on summary of vestors...gosh,he is so much faster than the other lecturer...and he's explanation is so much easier to understand...og dinner later...hope it wun end too late...i wan my sleep at 10pm...haha..

started the day with phy spa...hehe...i guess i did quite ok for it except that i'm not very sure abt the d.p. and s.f...very confusing sia...during 2nd break bought some snack at the western stall with ming shuan...then very funny...the food cost $1.30...so i wanted to give the uncle $2.30...a $2 note and 3 10-cent coins...i thought i gave him 3 coins but the uncle was like i only gave him 2 coins...then ming shuan thought maybe i drop the coin somewhere ard the stall so she began looking ard and lift up all the sauce bottles...lolx...then so i said nvm and so i started eating my food...after finishing my food i realised that the 10-cent coing was inside the plastic bag that is used to put the food..-_-"...hehe...
then during the chem lecture the teacher put in a lot of sound effects for her slideshow...then peehua cnnt stand it...hehe...then halfway thru the lecture both of us heard something drop...so we looked down and saw a pen on the floor between our chairs...so peehua picked it up and put it on my table...i was like,er,not my pen...then she looked at me and said,not hers either...hehe....so in the end i juz put the pen behind us...hehe...chem tutorial very sian...almost fell asleep...Zzzz...
then after school went to bugis with ming shuan to buy v'day present...diden noe it was so hard to buy a present...but bought new earrings for myself..hehe...happy....all my earrings spoil liao so now finnally have new ones...(^_^)

乘着新年假期，又看了一遍《剧院魅影》...天啊，超好看的...>.<...里面的歌也很好听...有句歌词挺发人省醒的：假面舞会，我不识人，人不识我...仔细想想，这个世界不也是个假面舞会吗?

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!! (^_^)

went to skul...quite a lot of ppl pon...peehua diden come...the concert wasn't really very nice...there was lion dance as usual...then the rest of the performances were moved outdoors to outside pt...then all the j1s were selling stuff to collect money for some charity thingy i think...in the end me,si xuan,jess,ming shuan,jing xuan and lex played cards in the canteen...miss ng gave us the dove wafer chocolate stick...then went parkway with jess and si xuan...jess met her fren there...si xuan went to laminate the card/paper/bookmark(?) for her fren...then we went walk walk...went to esprit to try out some clothes...tried this green blouse and white pants...i think it look a bit strange but i guess it's ok...coz si xuan say a bit punkish...blehx...

been doing a lot of thinking lately...well, actually i'm always thinking(too much)...
how i wish my mind could be simpler...
how i wish i could understand what i'm thinking...
how i wish i could just admit what i have always denied...
how i wish i could learn to handle difficult people and situations in a more mature way that will not in any way offend anyone...
how i wish i could just heck care about everything and enjoy life as it is...
how i wish i could just sit back and watch the world roll by...
basically, how i wish i could think less...
but then, the world doesn't allow you to think little and escape the consequences...

pe today was fun but tiring...we did alot of running and jumping at first...then we played volleyball again!...(:...same team as mingshuan,xiaojia,lex,junsen n huanjek...then junsen and huanjek very funny...and the teacher called them cartoons...hurhur...really very funny sia...then got class dinner tonight with ms suhana...jess can't go coz she got reunion dinner,sixuan can't go coz she got training,yanru can't go coz she...forgot the reason...then i dunno whether to go or not to go...so in the end i diden go and here i am typing away...heh...
juz got to noe abt something which i think is very scary...and worsen my distaste for...原来世界真的是黑的...
dunno how's the dinner going on...suddenly felt that maybe it's right not to go... ...

stayed back in skul for lunch together with yanru, sixuan and jess...then ate ice-cream and played cards!...=D...then wanted to go home at ard 3.30...but peehua wanted to go bugis collect her shoes then jess going so i tagged along as well...then i took bus home...it took so long to come...sighs...and it was damn packed...worse than bugis street...at first i thought i could find a seat on the bus and finish reading 'to kill a mockingbird' on the way home but i had to stand all the way...:(...chinese new year's comoing and i'm finally feeling excited over it!!!...coz this means holidays!!!....and loads of homework as well...pooh!...and i finally got a tagboard!!...yayee!!!...xD

有些事情还真的是不知道为妙...今早得知一件事...该怎么说呢?...一件有人忘了告诉我，而我却从另一人口中得知的事情...其实也不是啥大不了的事...只是知道后心里有点不是滋味...让我想起过去我曾努力想摆脱的阴影...

continued watching 'to kill a mocking bird' today during gp...there was subtitle today so i could understand what the actors were saying...the movie was very very nice...the plot is mainly about whites discriminating against blacks and it's sort of told from a child's perspective...very touching and very impactful...

ms suhana wanted to have dinner with the class supposedly for bonding...hurhur...

剩下不到一个礼拜就要过新年了...不知为何始终兴奋不起来...

there’s sc nominee speech in the morning...got one guy very lame...he was posing as an emcee introducing himself then he zi4 wen4 zi4 da1...then after that there’s phy lecture by mr beetsma...how exciting!...=.=...half the lt pon...and the remaining half were either doing their own stuff or sleeping...actually come to think of it, I feel a bit sad for mr beetsma...it seems that no one wants to listen to him...for gp we watched this movie called ‘to kill a mocking bird’...it’s quite nice though half the time I dun understand what the actors are talking...but it’s better than doing some essay or comprehension...xD...then econs was boring as usual...couldn’t catch what she was saying so I had to copy from si xuan who had to copy from ming shuan and who had to copy from pee hua....then she ask us do another essay...in pt. form but still...haiz...and she also ask us do some research on FTA in some countries such as USA, China, Singapore etc...sian...dun feel like doing...T_T...

read these from a book...thought they were quite interesting...hehe...

子：果子熟了为什么会掉下来？
父：地球有吸引力。
子：难怪人死了都往地下跑。

子：爸爸，那位大夫不像报上说的是位“无痛拔牙”者。
父：你感到痛了吗？
子：没有。不过，我咬他拇指的时候，他一直疼得直叫。

妈妈：“考的什么题？”
小华：“3乘7等于多少？”
妈妈：“你答了多少？”
小华：“我不管三七二十一，答了个10。”

明明在看连环画，画面上的一条龙正在吞云吐雾。一扭头，间爸爸正在使劲地抽烟，他忽有所悟地喊：“爸爸，你真是龙的传人！”

very funny right...i think some would say lame...haha...Xp

刚刚读了几则自己过去的post...才发现过去许多在意的事我现在早已忘了...也发现我的想法已改变了许多...读着读着，感觉好像慢慢地回到了过去的自己...也感觉好像自己成长了许多...总之有许多感慨...
像借这机会感谢我身边的好友们...谢谢他们对我的支持还有谅解...:)

1 more wk to chinese new yr but sadly I have yet to feel all hyped up abt it...:(...
there was pe yesterday...very fun...played some games then volleyball...then just before phy tutorial started xiao jia poked me on my waist...naturally I screamed and xiao jia genna shocked...then it was in the classroom so the whole class plus mr beetsma heard me scream...they were like ‘what happened?!’...damn paiseh sia...Xp...
today got mock chem SPA...i think I did ok for it...xD...

skul's pretty normal nowadays...there's a new round of angel & mortal in our class...but i have yet to receive anything from my new angel...:(...o lvl result was out yesterday(but really not much of my concern)...homework's coming in at a rate faster than going out...my inbox is flooding...and i'm sianz... ...

"A bird in the air told a riddle to me;
A fish is a bird that swims in the sea,
A bird is a fish that flies in the the air."

gosh, finally able to log in after numerous attempts...my internet connection's going haywired...^$&*%#%....anyway, there was og bbq today!!! it was very fun and yup, my freshmen gave me this huge piece of board with all their notes on it...and they also gave this puppy soft toy..very cute sia...and very touched by all of them...:))...and i found out something very interesting...muahahaha...
our class playing angel and mortal...quite fun...:))...my mortal is _____(of course cnnt say sia)...and i think my angel is _____(cnnt say or else not fun)...then got also play with junior class...but i write to my mortal she never reply...then my angel also never write or give anything to me...sad...T_T...
oh, and i passed my econs r-paper!!!!!! so happy...(^_^)...was thinking of dropping to h1 but now i thinl i'll stick to h2...:)...shall believe in miracles...

happy 18th b'dae to cher! :)

gosh, so long never blog le...hehe...orientation was from 2 jan to 4 jan...wasn't that much fun on the first day coz the freshmen all not high one...but it got better and better...xD...

there was og dinner on fri at changi airport...ate at fish n co....my freshmen treated me...awww,so sweet of them...>.<...heh...and after that played those 'black magic' type of game...played the string string game...the 'this is a string,this is not a string' game...hehe...i took sooooo long to finally get the trick and it is after like the others did it very very obviously...felt like such a failure...hehe... i realised my mind became slower...:(...

there was mass dance @ suntec on sat(5 jan)...it was raining rather heavily but fortunately it stopped after half an hr...it was very fun and everyone was high...yupps...

then there was sea regatta on mon(6 jan)...dunking wasn't allowed cause the teachers were concerned abt the safety of the freshmen...but in the end most of us went into the sea willingly...and splashed water ard...hehe...quite childish sia...but then very fun...xD...then went to one of my freshmen's condo near skul to bathe and change...then went to pizza hut at siglap for our last lunch together...awww,how sad...*sniff sniff*...

then lesson resumed as usual the next day...sianz...og bbq next fri...woohoo...Xp

今天是2007年最后一天...后天就要开学了...大后天有econs re-paper...haiz...
许多人爱在新的一年来临时立下新年志愿...我从来没这习惯...因为觉得麻烦...也不知道该立怎样的志愿...而且立了也不一定能遵守...可今年例外（我是指2008年），我已想好了我的新年志愿了：

1. 在2008不可以再挤“痘痘”了，
2. 每天要喝至少500ml的水，
3. 少吃零食，尽量不要在饭间吃零食，
4. 少吃油炸和太甜的东西，
5. 噢，还有，就是今年一定要把经济搞好。

呵呵..看着我的志愿清单,才发现我开始变得在意我的外貌了...嘿...不管怎样，我一定要说到做到...Xp

祝大家：新年快乐!!!